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[jay19tay]

hey. i was diagnosed with depression & social anxiety in december of 2017. at the time i was prescribed zoloft to help me with these things , but my mom made me discontinue my use because she was afraid it would make my suicidal thoughts worse. i have attempted once & and am working through therapy to get better. right now i’m taking this natural supplement called st. john’s wort which is supposed to help with depression but it dosent do shit lol.

i’m a senior in high school rn & i have so much on my plate . it’s totally overwhelming

only have a select few people who understand what i’m going through, one of them being my cat ella. my greatest supporter and my best friend. lol

hoping to use this platform to progress & also help others in need going through the same things if i can.

much love <3

[Ashley1489]

You got this girl. Ask your mom about cbd oil I heard it works amazing

[jay19tay in reply to Ashley1489]

thank you , i’ll definitely check it out !

[brightbronzexo]

Hey baby girl, I was once in your shoes and now im much much better, keep believing and striving and don't get too overwhelmed! Before you know it your graduation will be here and then you'll have the whole world to explore

[jay19tay in reply to brightbronzexo]

thank you so much! glad to hear you’re doing well

[jay19tay]

i think i’m having a lot of difficulty with the idea of college being four months away. having to identify a career path, making friends,networking. also having my parents push me into a direction they want me to be in(STEM) even though i’ve expressed how bad i am in the field is taxing. overall i think the transition from twelve years of grade school —> college is stressing me out

[jay19tay]

the college’s student ambassadors ivetalked to stressthe importance of clubs & student organizations as being thingsthat help with the transition & i know that i should join them but my anxiety wants me to stay away from them as possible

[Marshall64 in reply to jay19tay]

You can try the clubs or organizations and if you don't like them for some reason then you can quit. At least you would have tried and maybe you can come out with some new friends.

I get college being stressful. I went to college not knowing my major so i took all the basic classes first. I ended up changing my major twice. When I went away to college I literally did not know one person. I'm shy but I made some good friends and met my wife (that would turn into an ex-wife) there.

It is interesting that you mentioned that your parents were pushing you into the STEM field even though you were not interested in it. I am guilty of doing that to my daughter and she felt the same way you did. I stopped doing it and hearing the same thing from another student makes it more apparent to me that I was making a mistake in doing that. My daughter is 12 and I'm just trying to get her interested in different fields and most of new jobs are STEM fields (engineering, robotics, etc). I now just want my daughter to be happy.i work in engineering and it is a stressful field.

[jay19tay in reply to Marshall64]

yeah clubs seem like the way to go, im just worried about getting worked up& triggering attack’s. also, i’m glad you could see it from a different perspective! stem’s a great field, but it can be very intimidating. i’m sure your daughter will excel in whatever she does!

[jay19tay]

they have a few mindfulness & mental health support groups that seem worth while. i’m definitely going to check them out!

[Marshall64]

Cute photo. I didn't know there was a "Meowday"....

[jay19tay in reply to Marshall64]

haha thank you!

[Marshall64]

Are you feeling any better?

[jay19tay in reply to Marshall64]

yes i am, i feel a bit more hopeful for college. thank you so much for your help!

[Marshall64 in reply to jay19tay]

That is good. Look at your situation as being one that offers many opportunities. Even though I was shy, had anxiety, and didn't know anyone, it turned out to be the best time in my life. You get exposed to people from different countries, a lot of clubs, sports, and so on. My college had camping equipment to rent for cheap and we did a lot of that. We also did a lot of partying but i won't get into that. 😊

Just remember, most people new to cillege are going to be nervous like you. You got this....

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Hey Jaytay,

I tried St. John’s Wort from a friend’s recommendation, and it didn’t work for me either. It helped me a little bit with mood, but it always gave me stomach aches. I drink Ashwagandha now, but only if I’m anxious. It doesn’t help with my depression (making me feel more numbed instead), I feel like it’s a flip of a coin with herbal/medications. Anywho hope you feel better soon<3