Today has broken me

[secrets22]

This morning my little dog Eddie crossed the Rainbow Bridge and i am heartbroken.

He had'nt eaten or drank for 3 days and he lost so much weight in that time,but he was my shadow and constant for many years,and his loss is is to terrible to contemplate.

I took him to the vet this morning and they said we can do many tests but we cannot be sure he would live very long,and i made the decision for him to sleep,and we said our goodbyes in the faith that we will be together again.I brought him home for burial but i was struggling so much to dig in stony soil,i could not do it ,and almost by divine intervention 2 friends appeared and they took over,for still suffering from a broken shoulder anything manual is so hard to do.

Even with his last breath he was looking into my eyes,and i broke down in tears.

When i look back over my life,its always my dogs which have been the greatest comfort,far more than any human friends,but sadly we have to accept that our dogs have a far less lifespan than us,but in their short lives they teach us what love and devotion really is.

I still have 2 wonderful wee dogs,but Eddie was my soulmate,as was first little dog Billy,and i know i will never find that degree of love again,apart from the great love given me by my husband David,a man who adored me and took me from an unhappy existence to a life many would covet. In the space of 20 months i have lost all that i hold dear.Life is cruel,but I have known great love,a love that is often denied to many.

And now being totally alone it is something i never envisaged,but i do have an abiding faith which will serve me well in the years ahead,and i do get so disappointed when people say,'there is nothing beyond what we already know' but i know there is, and will be the reason why we are all here.

Those of little faith springs to mind and i am sad for them.

[Hidden]

I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of Eddie the dog.

The other 2 will be grieving for their friend as well.

[Isinatra]

So sorry, secrets22. I do understand your grief from the loss of your child. Yes, your child. When my little Mercedes was let go , I cried and still do, more for her than any human in my lifetime. She was my child for 15 years. I’m so, so sorry. 💜

[GirishKRJ]

Sounds like you've lost a piece that you might never get it back. Honestly, I don't know to cope up with it as well other than wishing you the best.

I'm sure Eddie is now in a heaven n happy to had his time with you, and meet you.

[quickblizzard]

Oh, I am so so sorry for your loss. Just remember, your sweet Eddie is always with you, looking out for you. Sending you much love.

[mydogs]

So sorry for the loss of your baby but he will only ever be one step in front or beside or behind you every second of every day big hug 😢🤗 xx

[Agora1]

secrets22, nothing breaks our heart like the loss of our furry friends.Extending my sincere sorrow. May his unconditional love for you follow

you forever. xx

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

It's hard to take is losing a pet no matter what creature it is.

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

You are so right Catgirl. It hurts xx

[Shnookie]

Dear Sectets. My condolences to U onthe loss of Eddie. The unconditional love that dogs give us is so comforting and touched the heart and soul. Eddie is in dog heaven and no longer suffering. I’m here 4 U hugs 🤗 Shnookien❤️🐕🙏💪

[Cb1963]

I'm so sorry that little 'Eddie' has walked into doggy heaven, your words are not missed on me, and our pets are loaned to us, and we have that privilege of caring and loving them until the day they leave our care, the happiness and joy is untold,and they wag a tail in happiness, we take these memories and hold them dearly, I feel your sorry, and your emptiness, I pass my deepest sympathy to you, and may you have your cherished memories for ever.

[Hidden in reply to Cb1963]

There was a girl at my old job who was signed off sick for 2 weeks after her Siberian husky Cain died.

[Cb1963 in reply to Hidden]

Its a massive loss, and I understand how it affects people, it's heartbreaking 💔

[Hidden]

So very sorry for the loss of your precious Eddie. It’s such an all consuming raw grief! I totally get it as we love our fur babies as much as wee love our human family and friends! It’s definitely a different kind of love as wee know we only have them for such a short period of time! Bless his wee soul. You did the very best thing for darling Eddie. You saved him from suffering, which I always feel we owe them that! They give so much to us unconditionally and wee owe them that debt of gratitude! I hope you find some peace in your heart. Your other wee fur baby will be lost too! Hopefully you’ll both be able to find comfort in one another! Rest In Peace Sweetie. Sending you the biggest of cuddles and all our love Lorna & boys 🌈🙏🏻🕊🐾💔😘xx

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

The other dogs will be pining over the loss of their friend as well as dogs and cats grieve for their friends like we do.

[secrets22 in reply to Hidden]

yes they are grieving,they are very subdued and wont go in the garden.....xx

[Dizzart]

💕💕💕💕💖

[Dolphin14]

I'm so sorry for your loss of Eddie. I do believe in the rainbow bridge and I know you will meet again.

❤️🐬

[Midori]

I can understand, particularly if Eddie is now with your husband. They will wait for you when your time comes. I'm glad you stayed with Eddie.

Cheers Midori

[Woodhouse16]

So sorry to hear of your loss our pets become our families too and part of our every day life! They leave a big gap but hope time will be a healer for you. Sending you much love!.💕

[bethelbee]

Sorry for your loss..it's so hard when we lose our fur babies. They are always in our hearts. Sending hugs and support ♥️

[Cavalierrubie]

I have been where you are. I send my love and prayers. There are many things we do not understand and God won't tell us until we get to Heaven. These little animals are given as a gift to us. We do our best for them until we can do no more and then God does the rest. There is no love like it as you say. I am thankful to God for all the blessings he has given me through my lovely dogs. Without them my life would have been much poorer.

[secrets22 in reply to Cavalierrubie]

oh dear friend,it is truly heartbreaking ,and its obvious you have gone through similar. thankyou.

[Hidden in reply to secrets22]

At an old job there was a lady there who worked evenings who had 2 dogs Ben a Jack Russell and Lucy a chichuaua and Ben had died and she had been devastated.

The lady concerned wasn't well liked it the kitchen as she had a nasty attitude and lots of people wouldn't speak to her.

I had seen her crying and had offered my condolences over the loss of Ben the Jack Russell and had said how losing a pet is always hard to take as they are part of the family.

[Gillyflower18]

So very sorry for your lost. Been through it myself and I understand how you must be feeling. Will be thinking of you.

[secrets22]

Dear Mratl83....losing those we love brings so much heartache and sadness.......and each loss brings us closer to despair,and so many things flow through my mind,that it becomes like a torture,but i must continue for my two wee dogs i still have,Diva and Yonnie,and after they go i will be ready to join them,for i have never known such heartache and loneliness in my life as the past two years have brought me,and i really dont understand what life is all about despite always having a faith.x

[secrets22]

and i am totally lost.x

[cheekalo37]

I am so sorry for your loss, Secrets22. Losing a beloved pet is so hard because of their unconditional love for us. But you gave Eddie a life that many pets could only dream of. That thought doesn’t take away the pain which you are feeling though. And it’s absolutely ok to feel the pain and grieve. It’s a testament to how much you loved him! Just remember that what you did when you helped him “cross over” is the last, most loving act a person can do for the one that you loved. And he knows that! I’m also very glad to hear that you have a strong faith that sustains you though these difficult moments life!

[Daveacr1959]

Beautifully written, and I love what it stands for. My dogs have meant the same to me. And I feel the same way you do about faith.

[secrets22 in reply to Daveacr1959]

Thankyou so much,my dogs are so precious to me,they have seen me through some bad times,and now losing my little Eddie i truly am bereft,and i am so glad that you to hang onto your faith,it is a great comfort.

[Daveacr1959 in reply to secrets22]

I struggle with my faith. Humans are skeptical. And we are supposed to believe everything, hook , line and sinker? Written by a bunch of superstitious people 2-7,000 years ago, who thought the world was flat. And supposedly they got to see and talk to god . And see miracles etc. But we have a mess on our hands here . And seeing god or a modern day miracle would be great! I see god in all the life on earth. But I pray daily for just a glimpse, like the ancient people claim to have had . I pray crazy prayers . Like god would take a person missing a limb to heaven and heal them. And show them what we are meant to see . And tell them what to tell us they saw and were told . I know faith is a belief in something you can’t see or prove. But I don’t think my prayer is selfish or weird, or disprespectfull ? People have been so ugly to each other for so long. A miracle like that would snap half of them back in place. The other half would call it a freak act of science , and not change. I think we will be with our loved ones again. And I think our dogs will be there too.

[Jim18255]

It's always terrible when you loose a loved pet. I've been through it myself many times and cried each time. I'm sure Eddie had a good life so try to think of the good times. I've found that getting a new dog right away helps me get over the grief but that's just my own experience-everyone probably reacts differently.