I rarely let my guard down...

[secrets22]

I rarely let my guard down but the last few years have brought me to the edge of despair,and now my little Eddie has gone i am consumed with grief and hopelessness,and when people say 'its only a dog' they have no idea what joy and love they bring,they are little people with fur on.

Life is an experiment of which i no longer want to be a part of.

I an considered to be a very strong able guy,but keeping that pretence up is more than i can do anymore,in truth i am an emotional wreck having lost all that i hold dear.

My life has been full of emotional difficulties from the very beginning,until my David came and took all my anxiety and worries away,but now he to has gone i feel a void that will never restore.

My wee 4 legged friends have kept me in good stead,but now losing Eddie has broken me,and my two remaining little ones ,Diva and Yonnie are pining and my fears of losing either one fills me with absolute despair.

I know that everything has an ending,but for me life seems very cruel.

God gives and he taketh away,such is the mystery of our existence.

[quickblizzard]

Anyone who says, "It's only a dog" really doesn't understand. Sending you the biggest, warmest hug I can muster.

[Lve2dance in reply to quickblizzard]

Yea that comment was cold... Maybe the person never had a pet so was clueless.. But whatever the case not good to devalue feelings

[Hidden in reply to quickblizzard]

There was a lady where I used to work whos ginger tabby had died and she was crying and another colleague had said it was only a cat!

It's what the pet meant to the person who had it which influences their grief when it does!

[Lve2dance]

Animals hold special places in our hearts. My mom lost her dog a long time ago but has pictures around the house.. Still misses it.

[Arymretep]

Each time we have lost a beloved pet we’ve said never again as it left us both heartbroken, my OH never cries but even he was really lost, some people just don’t understand, try and concentrate on Diva and Yonnie , they need you now., my heart goes out to you 😘

[Hidden in reply to Arymretep]

Yes so true you must foccus on your doggies Roddy you are stronger than you think to have got through the grief of David during lockdown with no human proper contact all them months, and pandemic stress,your doggies helped keep keep you going and they will again,and you will them, it's only been a few days and please believe me the pain will ease, you will get through this and I promiss you life will be good again as you deserve it I know it will never be the same but look how you perked up and felt normal even happy again even just for one day when your American friends came over,please try and arrange to meet up with your other friends as much as can don't wait for them to ask you, sending a big hug and love to you Diva and Yonnie 🤗💛💛xxxx

[Arymretep in reply to Hidden]

Hi Mandy, how are you doing 😘

[Hidden in reply to Arymretep]

Hi sorry just seen this I'm bit better now made decishion to sell leave it to fate this house is making me I'll too many negatives bad memories things don't like busy ring road bla bla just time for new start I've missed 3 houses down here further down as you know since moved back if I end up at mam's forever so b it fate is fate maby it's my destiny to live in a bedroom forever lol that's all I have done for 2 half years at mam's in my bedroom there and since I moved back home exept I had few nights on new sofa downstairs watching TV with pixie he loved it so cosy he would meow for me to come down he'd fall asleep on there then wake up and come to bed, I delayed getting one as was waiting for the builder to knock wall out then after 5 months saw nice one in charity shop steam cleaned then he messaged me said be knocking wall out lol shame I'll have to sell it I could say can have it with house if want how are you I'm off to land of nod now hopefully 🤗🐯💛

[Arymretep in reply to Hidden]

Good luck with the house 👍😘

[Hidden in reply to Arymretep]

Thanks I'll need it I have told council the bus shelter is attracting vandals and now they have stopped buses so good chance to remove shelter then I'll have front parking it stopped my house selling night night 🤗💛🐯

[Arymretep in reply to Hidden]

Well done you 👍

[Hidden in reply to Arymretep]

P s I've come of HRT for now and I'm roasting 🤒I'm ringing doctors tomorror want my blood test to check liver

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

That's it isn't it you offer the hand of friendship rather than waiting for others to come to you.

The loss of Eddie is still very raw like an open wound and it takes time for the pain to ease.

The other dogs will be grieving as well for their friend.

[Hidden]

Life can be very cruel at times as I have been on the receiving end of life's cruelties too many times myself.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

So true hope keeps me going and have to go on for pixie and mam no choice

[Arymretep in reply to Hidden]

That’s all we have is hope , and love 😘

[JCPrague]

It is very difficult. I know. I have lost people and animals due to death. It is a terrible experience. I cannot take it myself. I know how you feel.

[Cb1963]

I feel your words, l hear your pain, I hold your grief, I understand 💔 you feel broken. We listen, we care, and send a virtual hug,our pets are more than just pets, they become a member of the family, we talk to them, they never judge us, a look into their eyes a mystery we can never solve, but the unbridled happiness , a run in the park, a moment chasing their own tails, the barking at the postmen, the puppy days when they when they looked in the mirror and ran away, the memories, its who we are, it makes you the kindest person to share your thoughts, and the forum is blessed to have such a wonderful person who has this caring outlook, we ALL feel your sorrow and sadness, we can't fill the void, but will remember EDDIE as your best human doggy friend 💙

[Hidden in reply to Cb1963]

Well said 🤗🐯let's give us unconditional love there always our babies children grow up and leave home our pets always need us to feed them etc from.the moment we wake up there there waiting for us I've loved and lost so many cats and I will continue to I will never be alone I'll always have a cat to love and be loved by,love is endless and vast we can love again and continue giving pets loving homes, take care 🤗🐯

[Cb1963 in reply to Hidden]

As a young boy I was brought up with cats, then in later life had a cocker spaniel, called rolo, daft as a brush! And I remember all my cats names Thomas, Toby, poppy and lily, all at different stages in my life, but Toby was the sweetest cat, and it's etched into the memories even with me now nearly 40 years later in life, so ,I thank my pets for the years of joy they have given me and my family, they were loved 😍, and were welcome the day they were born, I'm eternally grateful for their moment's of madness and pure individuality,they mould us into caring, loving human beings, how can we EVER pay this back, I have cried in losing all my beautiful pets, and I feel they have a bit of my soul with them, i take comfort knowing they lived a wholesome and fulfilling life,my pets owned me, we are privileged to have our furry friends 😊

[Hidden in reply to Cb1963]

Good morning I can relate to all of that first cat I remember I was about5 sandy then tibby smokey Smokey's kittens my sister got 2 a nebour hot one when I left home I got lucky and yes I did as got lucky beautiful black cat then Tigger they used to sleep in front of fire with his arm.round Tig I remember moving into a partner of thens house I took the cats of course but lucky was too territorial he would follow me back down street and stay 3 days then go missing few days I kept going back for him sometimes couldn't find him then he'd appear one day he never came back, Tigger got bullied by a ginger Tom I feel the stress added to his heart attack then appeared when I was moving house on my own 2 ferrel kittens sleeping in a kennel I made and running around jet n cristal I called them she had a ginger patch I was told a nebours cat had kittens across the way and no where to be seen shed thrown them out, I think there dad with ginger they lived 13 15 years then was my nebours cat jack prefers me,and then my pixiebob 7 years on just me and him,pixie rules the roost 🤗🐯

My first cat

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Pixie is a Bengal version of Baby as she rules the roost as well and is looking forward to her fish this afternoon.

She was envious when I said Pixie got given a chicken fillet for Sunday dinner though!

[Arymretep in reply to Hidden]

I love that photo of you Mandy👍X

[Hidden in reply to Arymretep]

Thanks I havnt changed much have I 😁how are you had busy day again been helping mam with sink unit we had to sowe some off to get round washer pipes I been doing my flooring feel lot better now I put over bodged up bits looks more homeley builder coming Sunday just charging phone and visiting my friend known since 4 not seen her for ages very mild here now but was raining earlier catch up soon I'm exhausted hope you sleep well I'll be asleep early 🤗😺xx

[lovemydoggy]

I so understand what you're saying. When I lost my dog Daisy 7 years ago I was beyond devastated. She'd been through it all with me and got me through the worst time of my life. Now I can smile at the memories and still tell her I love her and miss her. The grief was awful. I now have a darling shih tzu. My avatar. I love him so much. I made a deal with him that I take care of him and he takes care of me. We stick to it! It took a while, but I love him as much as I loved Daisy. We go on and always have the memories. We keep them in our hearts always.

I'm so sorry for your loss. ❤️

[Midori]

I really get concerned by folk who say things like 'It's only a dog, cat, bird, iguana'. It shows a coldness towards others.

A pet, (of whatever variety ) is a little personality all of it's own, and truly becomes part of the family. And like part of the family you mourn it's passing.

For some folk, they Are your family, and grieving for them is just as relevant as for any other relative.

Ignore those ignorant people and take joy in your other two dogs. All three of you are mourning, and you need to be strong for them too.

I don't have a dog at the moment, but I would love one again, but I will have to be careful which type I choose, as I am not too good on my pins, and falling over the dog would not be good for either of us!

Cheers, Midori

[Hidden in reply to Midori]

At a previous job a colleagues granddaughter was distraught after her goldfish had died and I had said how sorry I was and everyone else had laughed saying how it was only a goldfish but it doesn't matter it's hard losing a pet no matter what creature it is.

[covidZ in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for response I am still trying to navigate through this web site .

[covidZ]

I can't justify a response for what you must feel . Jake is my best friend (my dog , his human )Please take some sort of comfort in that you miss Eddie and that he will not miss the loss of you . Its my goal to out live Jake and my others that they may not feel that same loss .

I wish I could hug you now .

[Hidden in reply to covidZ]

A colleague at a previous job had a very spoilt Springer called Jake who was ruined!

[covidZ]

Thank you I guess life is a part of interaction .