Routine life

[Kevin160]

I dont really have a huge update to write after this long, Not sure why im writing anything, or if i will end up posting this, i dont even remember when was the last time, and i kinda forget about this platform, its no longer this huge part of my life it once was and im not sure if i should be proud of that or not.

Mentally im doing ok, not the greatest, but anxiety wise im doing extremely well, not sure if its the covid isolation, from the online lectures, not getting out of the house etc.. but feeling blue and depressed alot of the time, and the instrusive thoughts and fears hold me back at times.

Physical symptoms are really heavy, always tired, derealization is really annoying too but i think, memory and attention span suck. And it worries me at times.

Not sure if i have any updates but it been really long i guess, and i dont really need to vent so im not sure why im still writing , i feel i want to express and vent, but also dont feel like writing and posting anything.

I want to sound grateful, and not complaining because i really feel decent, im getting things needed to be done done and im not falling behind, i just wish i wasnt feeling like i have to drag my legs throughout the day (metaphorically and litteraly speaking)

I have so many goals but no motivation to do them, i put alarms, timers, reminders, but i just cant seem to go for them, i want to exercise, practice playing my instrument, extra languages etc.. but i seem to physically cant get myself to go for it..

[newbie1956]

Soooo happy to hear from you again, Kevin.

Don't worry. Be proud of any progress you've made.

I'm proud of you...

Agape

[Kevin160 in reply to newbie1956]

I missed you alot, thank you for supporting me, makes me feel so much better

[Midori]

Great to see you here again.

Yes, I have found there is a Covid component for those if us with depression. For me its the not being able to socialise, go places, see people. I have become mentally 'shrunken', the only way I can describe it.

I appear to have lost my drive, even my crafts don't engage me, and I can't read more than a chapter or two of any book; and I used to be an avid reader, even directories if I got desperate!

Even my memory seems to be failing from lack of stimulation.

Cheers, Midori

[Roxylox in reply to Midori]

Sorry , Midori , And hope Im not upsetting another post but bave you tried Crosswords and puzzles. Whrn I was on a low they werethe only thing that kept me going. Not sure if they would help you or not kevin, bit wouldn't do any harmBody

I think motivation is a problem for everybody Kevin whether they have other issues or not , especially during these Covid times.

[Fumble]

You should be proud of what you've achieved in the last couple of years. You've got to uni and you're getting what you need to done to keep up.

Don't beat yourself up that you're not doing dozens of extra things in these difficult times.

It's especially easy to talk yourself out of doing things if you have a long list you can hardly make a dent in.

Maybe just choose one thing that you will really enjoy and concentrate on that and set a couple of realistic goals just for that one thing.