Not feeling myself lately. I know being on lockdown probably doesn't help but I just feel so lost. I have no motivation to do anything, all I want to do is sleep, my dreams are starting to turn weird at night now too, not sure if that's my depression or anxiety playing into that so I wake up feeling even worse than when I went to bed.
I know it sounds stupid but I dont feel like I can talk to anyone because everyone just says how I'm being negative ( even when it's not intentional) my boyfriend says I just bring him down so I dont really talk a lot anymore because I'm afraid of being negative without even meaning to. Normal conversations seem to turn into fights because I reply to something he or someone said and somehow its twisted to me being negative when all I was doing is simply answering a question. I just feel so alone ☹ I would go see about seeing my doctor again but I dont drive and I already have enough appointments that my boyfriend drives me to. I dont want to annoy him with more visits. Waiting to hear back about getting back on some of my old meds but have to wait on a referral since I havent been on my adhd meds in about 4 or 5 years. I feel like this pandemic is making it so much worse just to get the help I need or to see a doctor. And I cant do anything until I hear back about this referral I've been waiting on :/ doesn't seem like it's going to happen anytime soon