Feel like I'm being deceived

[Fruitsofspirit]

I understand the hospice comfort care but I feel they are trying to keep me dope up and it cuzing my body to decrease and brake down. My nurse came today and they are see trying to mess with my meds for my depression and anxiety and another. 1/2 dose that would cuz so much bad for me. My fear and anxiety is screaming loudly. I'm still hanging on the Lord with all I can. Their notes say 6 months/less. No one told me they that. said I can be comfortable to give me prolonged a more comfortable care so it's not so hard on me. My emotional mentally hurting. I know I'm dieing but not this fast. I'm going down hill fast. So much fear.

[Rafiki11]

I’m so sad to hear how you’re suffering. This sounds like a terrifying experience. It is okay to feel afraid. I also know that dying is a natural part of living. Your soul is safe. Only your body is going downhill fast.

[Fruitsofspirit in reply to Rafiki11]

It's not really the dieing. I know I will findlay have no more hurt, pain, tears. It's living through it to the end. I don't want to be a burden to my family but I want to die at home. I being selfish.. Plus want my family have good memories. Not a cranky, depression and anxiety, crying all the time person. You all are great ❤️ thank God for you all

[Rafiki11 in reply to Fruitsofspirit]

I don’t think it’s selfish to want to be at home without being a burden to your family. I think most people want to die peacefully at home with their family before they become a burden on their family.

[Broken1971]

So sorry you are dealing with your depression and anxiety on top of everything. There has to be some way they can help you with this. Hang onto your faith. I don't have to tell you that, but keep being the strong person that you are. We're with you!

[Fruitsofspirit in reply to Broken1971]

Thank you so much very grateful for your heart. I'm going to believe, keep faith and continue loving and seeking the Lord. How are you doing and feeling? PM anytime. Ur in my heart and prayers. God's blessings

[Broken1971 in reply to Fruitsofspirit]

I'm doing fine, nothing I can't handle! Thanks for the kind thoughts.

[Fruitsofspirit]

I'm crying with you

[Fruitsofspirit]

I feel u hon.

[Fruitsofspirit]

Glad ur keeping food down and eating. Hon I'm always here for you. I have much love for you to

[Fruitsofspirit]

I thought that to on mine but perky as can be. Praying for you both he listens and hearing us

[Fruitsofspirit]

Ask the Lord.

[Marshall64]

I can't imagine what you are going through. You seem like such a kind gentle soul. Hoping that things work out for you. You seem strong while going through hospice. Don't understand while they would deceive you.

Wish I could offer more...

[Fruitsofspirit in reply to Marshall64]

I just felt that way cuz I'm not a Dr. lol. I guess there a reason to some of what their doing with the meds that I have a problem understanding and dealing with since I don't like feeling drug up. I need to know and understand things before I do it. Thank you for your kind words. Pray u are doing good.