Hello out there! This is my first post on any format for years. I have so much social anxiety that just one post is taking a very long time to send and create ( I will obsess about what I write here later). However, the need for community and connection is greater and is the motivational factor in putting myself out here today.
My supports in life are my partner of 7 years and my therapist at betterhelp. I walk dogs, enjoy skating, nature hikes, essential herbs and oils, yoga, meditation, writing music, watching movies, listening to audiobooks on topics related to mental health, addictions and traumas. My traumas are related to early emotional neglect and religious traumas. I am hoping this pain will lead me to being an authentic person that truly loves there self so I can be a good friend and support to others.
I am most likely going to start medication soon and am nervous about side effects (especially if the anxiety/depression were to worsen). If I were to start meds it would be citalopram 10mg. If anyone has experience with this medication or is dealing with any of the topics I mentioned above I am interested in hearing your stories. Peace.
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I'm sorry, I don't have experience with that medication, but I want to say congrats and go you for your long (and flawless!) post. Writing that with social anxiety is no mean feat--congrats!
Thanks for the encouragement and reply. I am usually a ghost in texts and forums, but I just went for it. Did social anxiety bring you to this place too?
I came for depression. I have been hit hard this year and I don't quite know what to do. I don't have the support system that I need and thought I might turn to the Internet.
Needing that extra support brought me here too. I am curious how these forums will help all of us. I am very new to this. I feel ya with the topic of depression. It's a tough place. Do you experience it consistently or just moments of it?
I have not had luck on forums before, but I am hoping one with such a broad base will be more supportive. :)I experience depression consistently now. Previously it was episodic and manageable. I am working with (feels like against) my insurance to have transcranial magnetic stimulation (TMS) done to jog my brain a bit.
It sounds intense, but that probably matches the intensity of what you are experiencing. I truly hope you get the treatment and support for it. A couple weeks a month I experience depression and then it cycles back to anxiety, but those couple weeks of depression are horrible.
It is fortunately less intense than its predecessor electro-convulsive therapy (ECT). The neurologist said it may show signs of working within a week or so, and clinic success average is roughly 2 of 3 patients. It involves daily treatment for 6 or so weeks, but I am ready to try it. I want my personality back so badly.
I don't want to pry or be rude, but your description of cyclical depression and anxiety sounds familiar. Could it be related to premenstrual dysphoric disorder? I know women with depression can also suffer from this and once wondered if I had it too.
If the depression first started around the time you started your period or follows your cycle it is possible it could be pmdd. I heard about pmdd back in 2013 I felt like that was exactly what was going on with me. Especially the fact that I notice my mind changing during very specific and consistent moments prior to or after menses. Like rapid fire images and negative stories in my mind that I have a hard time managing, getting migraines, fear that I am evil that everyone hates me, hating everything or just wanting to stay in bed and stay away from people. Its wild and I feel bad for my partner because a lot of times I starting doubting my relationship, but luckily she is very understanding and she tells me it will pass and it does, but I definitely become a "different person" during this time. I am still trying to figure out how to manage in those moments especially.
Yes it has worked for me I started on 10mg but increased it to 30mgs following a bad year with deaths in the family and other illnesses , I also take Mirtazipine at night.
Ps it does take a few weeks to really kick in so a bit of patience is needed. Talking through anxieties on here is so helpful as there is always someone to listen. I belong to the Kidney and Lung Forums too. Despite being an ex nurse it all very different when it happens to you
I was on Citalopram aka CeleXa at 10mg. Only side effect I had was diarrhea and it was for about a week and it stopped. Just stopped taking it cause it really wasn't for me. My issue is with the doctor that prescribe me it cause I feel he ain't really listening to my needs. My anxiety stems from childhood trauma (thx dad, mom and 3rd grade teacher).
I do get emotional during that time of the month. I was told it was PMS. I usually feel unwell and cramps suck.
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