I can barely believe it. I’ve been suffering to the extreme most all of my life with short breaks of some freedom. After getting on a few new meds and quitting drinking recently I just feel on top of the world often life is a blast and in difficult times I know I can handle whatever life throws at me and I am grounded in hope faith and love.
I wanted to share this because if you were to read older posts of mine you can tell how hopeless anxious depressed and close to giving up I was. A very small part of me thought I could heal and do better. Never give up. Hold onto that hope no matter how small the opening of the door out of hell can seem. Joy and peacefulness are waiting around the corner.
Thanks for listening. Blessings to you. ❤️
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Thanks for reporting this. It is wonderful news to hear... Several years back I got put on meds. But the real moment was when I took a really low does of Xanax... I remember the problems and the worry fazing out... I actually noticed the sky was blue and never really remembering/appreciating this before. It was the first time I ever noticed how much over processing my brain does... It still releases so much cortisol at any given random time. This part SUCKS!!! My body is going through the stages of an anxiety attack yet I now have the cognitive awareness that there is really nothing to fear. I am hoping journaling and learning triggers as well as continued ERP will get the brain to stop responding to even subconscious triggers... I am really worn out at the end of the day. I a super glad you had a break through! If you have a bad day just remember it could be your stupid brain.
Exposure Response Prevention. Kind of allowing triggers to happen and even revisit them again and again so ones brain gets triggered... THEN avoid the response the unfortunately feels so strong to do. Seek reassurance, avoid, drink, eat, indulge in negativite thoughts, sleep... instead exercise, journal, read, breath. Other positive life giving things. It sounds much easier than it is as I write this.
Starr, this warms my heart and made my morning! I am so happy that you have regained your hope, faith and love.
And course you can handle whatever life throws at you! You're Starr! You've handled everything up to this point and will continue to be the master of your domain going forward. You have not just survived, you clearly have thrived!
I hope you're as proud of yourself as I am of you. May your joy continue to grow ❤️
((((((((((((((((((CJasmin))))))))))))))) big huge for ya. It’s still hitting me that I have made it out of complete miserableness and was able to keep a hold on the faith and hope and love, I mean I felt so dead inside and now I still struggle with some things overwhelming me at times but I have more control over my thinking feelings actions. Thanks for your support. It means a lot to me and I see you are doing amazing and I’m proud of you too!
I’m nervous about my upcoming surgery only because I don’t have any family to go with me, however I’m grateful for the people in my life that are helping me get through this.Thank You for your concern 😎🕶
Thanks for being happy for me. You’re such a good friend. Maybe we will meet up one of these days... I guess I still have to work on some things like driving places and i really hope I will get to that point where I am going out to meet a friend without anxiety holding me back but I think I’m getting there!
Really, glad to hear your doing well. Starlight. It can be a long, old, slog can't it? Giving up drinking, is the very best thing you could have done. As it can affect us anxious types, badly. Soo well done! 👍
Defidently. Alcohol is so bad for us in so many ways it depletes is of nutrients and sends toxins making like holes in the blood-brain barrier... it makes us act dumb it makes us age prematurely ... it causes depression and anxiety, messes with metabolism and can lead to cognitive diseases... I could go on
This is wonderful! I feel similarly. If you look back at some of my old posts you can tell how deep in depression and generalized anxiety disorder I was. I suffered, and had numerous moments of wanting to give up.
When I started my new antidepressant almost a year ago, things finally changed for the better. When it finally kicked in I remember thinking, is this how other people feel? I still have occasional episodes of depression and GAD, but they are usually more manageable.
I’m so glad you are feeling better. Hope is so important. 💚
That’s amazing! So happy It’s a great life for you now! I am still strugglinglije I still need to know how others continually go about normally haha 🤣 but I have my amazing times too! Gooooo us!!!
Yes! Like I said, I still struggle but I don’t feel so trapped in the darkness. I’ve accepted that I’ll probably be on medication for the rest of my life, but I'm okay with it. I can finally see the good in my life again.
Oh yeah 😊 Yeah good point! Accepting that too helps. I will be on meds too probably forever Seeing the good in life is a huge change and we worked for it! I think it’s such a blessing I can barely believe I’m in such a better place.
Hey Starr!!!!Just turned on my computer and your Post popped up helping to make me feel amazingly happy to know you feel WONDERFUL!!!!!! HOORAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And, I bet everyone who reads your Post can see it IS possible to feel better, enjoy our lives, get back in the grove. The word 'hope' comes to mind...that's exactly what you've given me...through your wonderful example I know that, for me, as I continue working hard, maybe I can experience inner-peace. My wish is that you continue thriving and feeling fantastic!!! Thanks so much for sharing this very special part of your journey!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh I want you to paint. That might be nice for you!
Hey Starlight, glad you're feeling better. If you ever read some posts of mine, some of mine were very bleak and sad and I understand where you're coming from. Sometimes when we are in a dark place we have to tell ourselves we won't be there forever!!! I'm happy for you.❤️
I'm taking it easy this Saturday. Where I live it might rain and snow a little today and the temperature is supposed to really drop tomorrow so we do have some food stocked up and I'm going to read and hibernate at least just for today. I have a job interview coming up this Tuesday that I'm nervous about and I REALLY want and need this job so I'm reading and focusing about how to come across well in an interview, it's nerve wracking but I've got to do my best.
Wow....this is awesome! I have read many of your old posts so I know what you are saying now is quite a breakthrough, May I ask again what meds you are taking? Any particular one make a difference?
I think they all work together well but the last two made the amazing difference which was Paxil and Remeron. Buspar I’m on and that helps with anxiety. The other old ones I don’t know how much if at all they are helping but they are Zyprexa and Lithium.
Awww Love that you have the gift of painting, the gift of a cat friend, a gift of work, ...and I hope you feel better soon 🤒 😊I’m feeling something myself. Run down and headaches
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