I know this but some days like this I'm more amazed than scared of how powerful my mind can do to my body. 2 nights ago I woke up in the middle of the night with a very painful chest. I thought I was going to have a heart attack alone in my house. I somehow manage to survived the night, manage to rode my bike to work while almost fainting, with very pale face asked my colleague to send me to hospital 40 minutes far from the office and went to see the doctor. Upon getting clearance from the general doctor, a gastro specialist, a 30 minutes talk with a psychiatrist as well as a good result from ecg, I walked out from the hospital freed from all the excruciating pain that I was feeling. My body felt so brand new I went to have good lunch with my friend, continue working in the office and slept for 10 straight hours until morning. My life was in fact saved by just talking to the doctor. These are episodes that always happened to me but I still can't convinced my mind that I am healthy and I kept wanting reassurance from doctor. I know our mind can really make our body created all these physical symptom just by thinking about it. With this assurance I just received from doctor, I know that my heart and lungs (my two major things I am most worry with my health) are ok. Now, no matter what I feel in my chest, I try to just ignore it. Tonight my mind is trying to trick me by giving a new symptom that I never had before. I suddenly felt like I'm getting blurry vision I( I think it's just too much phone and computer screen). But two things came into my mind immediately. 1.I have brain tumour. 2. I'm going blind. My health anxiety started to kicks in again I just can't believe it! This journey to recovery is going to be very long but I hope I can slowly get control my mind and bring it the the beautiful side of this world. Is there anyone here who feel the same way?