With two of my friends throwing up and another taking care of them, we were stopped on the side of the road at 2AM. I remember feeling so numb in the face and had this agonizing feeling. I had this fear that no one would want to love me as a partner. It was weird to have that feeling as I held onto the grass between my fingertips. I felt too complicated for someone. My aniexty and depression would overwhelm that someone. It took my friends a long time to get used to this mess I call my life, but imagine someone wanting to love me romantically for that? I stayed there, laying on the grass at 2 AM wondering if I'd ever be loved and it was a horrible feeling.
Is there hope for me?
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I would think you might do better if you drank less. I don't want to be judgmental, but I do feel a lot of people nowadays drink far too much at one time, and it's said to worsen depression. When I was a teenager in the 80's a fairly moderate amount of drink would make us happy on a night out. Now I probably do sound like an old biddy! Tell me so if you want. By the way, I'm not from the States. We were allowed t legally drink at 18.
No you are okay! I agree completely, it's just difficult managing work and school and alot of my friends hang out and drink most of the time so I always find myself wanting to be apart of that too. It's hard seeing them be so happy for those few hours hey are drunk while I am sober.
You're no different to the majority. About being happy with drink though, you could get to a happy stage after just a few drinks. I used to find l was better off to stop when feeling happy. After that in my case anyhow if I had more I would just feel icky.
Even last weekend, my husband and I shared a bottle of wine. That would be only 3 glasses each. Would usually only be used to 2 now. Anyhow next morning I felt sad and was even tearful. Thank you for not taking offence, I don't want to be overstepping the mark
Of course there’s hope for you !!! It’s your anxiety and depression talking, that’s all !! Would you reject someone because they are are prone to anxiety or depression, I’m guessing no , so why wouldn’t there be any for you ? If you worry about it too much then you’ll shut yourself off from the possibility because you’ll be to scared to even try. Yes we can have many rejections before we find the right partner but that goes for EVERYONE, depression or no depression, anxiety or no anxiety. 🤗
In my young days I had a guy ask me out and he accidentally asked me out to work instead of dinner because he was soo nervous, I just thought it was cute and he was just really nervous and probably anxious. Hope your depression and anxiety gets better though for your sake do in the future you can ENJOY a loving relationship and life 😁🤗
Thank you and that's a cute story ! I've dated people and so forth, everyone around me have their own love lives and such and they are the ones without mental health issues. A dumb correlation I put together, I know, it's difficult being friends with people who have a tough time understanding what you go through.
Do not overthink it , do not let it drag you down!!! Please believe me !! If all the people who have depression or anxiety couldn’t have a love life then there’d be very few relationships!!! There’s many many girls out there who will be thinking the exact same as you , hiding away and not having the confidence to get out there and believe they deserve love, waiting for their prince to come along, thinking no one will want someone like them !! Do not give up !!! Please, no Matter what your mind tells you !!! Hell , there’s someone out there just waiting for someone like you !!!!! 😁❤️
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