Hey there. Not sure if anyone will see this but I'm wondering, what do you do if your depression has spiked again and you feel a relapse?
Lemme explain. I attempted suicide a little over a month ago. Months before that, I had textbook examples of anxiety and depression but getting help from the counseling center at my college was hard and led to eventual denial that I had a problem. After the suicide attempt, I tried super hard again to get help. Telling my friends helped me a lot and journaling every day has made things more manageable since then. Now I've been getting up and staying motivated consistently for at least a week and a half, i've been proud of that.
But just yesterday, I told two of my closest childhood friends what's been going on, in the hopes of keeping my momentum going. Their response was filled with ignorance. They were searching for the external situation that caused depression, trying to find "logic" in what I was saying. One of them was even smiling as I re accounted the events. It had me disturbed and although I journaled this morning about it and told my close friends who get me, I still feel broken up about it.
I know I'm not alone, is there anyone who can give some advice on how to move forward with those friends? Also, are there any practices/self love habits/mantras that have helped people get through the relapse that may result because of it? I've been feeling pretty down today, and that familiar hopeless feeling is crawling back and it just sucks so much.