I feel mostly okay with my depersonalisation, so I am not sure if I want to even bring the topic up to my therapist.

I've read that most people don't like the feeling of depersonalisation, but it feels almost like I'm able to escape life a little and I like not being totally present. I'm supposed to be working on mindfulness with my therapist, but ever since I started working on it months ago I have had depersonalisation. I guess I am totally doing mindfulness wrong! I've stopped trying to do mindfulness ever since my symptoms kept getting worse though. My therapist told me to not be judgmental and to let feelings just float by when being mindful...I felt like a robot trying to be mindful and now I feel a bit stuck into robot mode. I don't know if what I'm saying is making much sense though. Anyway, I am really feeling depressed and actually liking my brain being on partial vacation all the time. It feels weird when I talk to my daughters and feel so disconnected from them, but that's probably the only thing from depersonalization that bothers me a little. I see my therapist Monday and I am still debating with myself whether I should talk to her about it. I feel like she will just go on her spiel about mindfulness.