Falling apart

[Sadmama]

The last few days have been extremely hard. I don’t know why. Today I ended up lying on the floor sobbing my heart out. I can’t stop crying and I don’t even know why. How do I get past this? Talk therapy had never worked for me and drugs just mess up my vision. I am really ready to give up.

[Hidden]

I haven't got much advice to give apart from please don't give up. Things will get better you just need to give it some time. How long have you felt like this?

[Sadmama in reply to Hidden]

On and off my whole life. I was told by my grandmother almost daily that my family did not want me and my parents kept me out of obligation. That does something to a kid’s head.

[b1b1b1 in reply to Sadmama]

I had an emotionally abusive childhood, but not to that extent. Your story is terrible and very sad. If I were you I would not give up on talk therapy. xx

[Hidden in reply to Sadmama]

That's a terrible thing to say to a child. I can't imagine what it would do to anyone. I'm really sorry to hear you have been treated like this.I'm here if you need to talk.

[Sadmama in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. Just knowing that someone is willing to listen helps

[MoonDreaming]

I'm so sorry you are going through this, I am also having a rough week. If med's are not working, talk to your doctor. They can adjust or change medication. Life is hard, people are jerks, times are tough but even so you can persevere. It's hard to see now but things change, we can offer each other support here.

[Hidden]

I am so sorry you are going through all of this, how often do you get to go to therapy?

[Sadmama in reply to Hidden]

I have tried therapy in the past but it never helped.

[Mama_Bear_x2]

I’ve been having a really rough couple of days myself. Hang in there and please don’t give up. It’s hard to fight every single day but I have to tell myself that it’s worth it and it will get better. You got this!

[Bluespoonblu]

Dont give up... fight with all you’ve got.. see a therapist specific to ur problem.. read self help books.... get out tho u dont feel like it.. I agree with you about the medication. And I speak from experience with depression. Each day is a challenge but you’ve got to get up and put yourself in a position for something positive to happen that means get your mind in a position where I can receive hope. You’re down but you’re not out. Please love yourself and see all the complicated things it took to make you be you.Don’t let the darkness for you and thinking that it’s always going to be dark. Give yourself a chance to see the light

[mysticfawn]

Hi Sadmama. Depression knows no boundaries. It loves to cause havoc in lives for no reason at all. Please don't give up. Life is terrible for me right now but being a Christian, I know I will never get to be with my husband again if I take that way out. He was my best friend for 41 years until he passed away of Cancer not long ago. I also find myself sobbing in a heap in the middle of my kitchen floor or even hiding in a closet. It comes when I least expect it. Talk therapy really does help, it's just hard when you have no way to pinpoint your reason for depression. It's not taboo like days off old to check yourself into the Behavioral Health facility. They can really help you get it together. I am sure of that. They admit you for a short time so they can get your medicines regulated and help you through this super tough time. Just go to any hospital emergency department and they will help you. Or you can always contact your local mental/ Behavioral health department. If you don't have insurance, they will still help. Good luck. --- Mystic Fawn.