Everytime I get Happy about something I can't genuinely get there because I'm always ready for the Worst! So I never can be truely happy about anything because I'm always ready for the Knife to go in my Back! No matter if I got a good job, a roof over my head, a new Boyfriend it always happens! Idk does anyone else feel the same and if you have how did you finally conquer it? Please Help Me with this any advice will suffice!
Thank you
I can’t really help you but I’m going through the same. It’s almost impossible for me to be happy because I’m so scared something bad is going to happen, so it’s always easier to except the worst to happen.
So you’re not alone on this one. I hope I could help more but I’m searching for answers myself. Hit me up anytime if you need to talk 
Thank you very much! I appreciate the offer!
Hello!
I think it can be called self-sabotaging. Instead of enjoying something, we twist it and let our negative feelings from the past or the future invade this one good thing. We need to give ourselves permission at times, to enjoy life! Wishing you the best!!
Self sadatoge. You're so used to feel horrible that when you finally feel happy you start to think maybe you dont deserve it.
I'm 67 , I've had up and downs for 40 years. Tried marriage and relationships. I suffer from depression and a very bad back. One can live like this for a long time. I always look forward to tomorrow
Have a wonderful day and life.
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