Trying so hard to be better

[ktg17]

I’ve tried numerous antidepressants and nothing is helping me feel better. I just don’t feel happy, and I also have anxiety so I’m stressed constantly. I’ve been prescribed Xanax and Clonzepram, the two strongest anxiety-calmers and they have no effect on me. What is wrong with me?!?! I feel so stupid and alone, and also guilty because I have functioning depression so on the outside I look fine but on the inside I’m dying, but I feel guilty for being able to do more than others with depression and still feeling sorry for myself.

I have chronic pain that my doctors keep attributing to my depression, but If no therapy or medication helps my depression than I feel my pain will never get better either. I feel so lost and discouraged. Anybody been thru something similar or have medication recommendations?

[lillyofthevalley37]

Hi I looked at your previous posts and wondered if the progesterone contraceptive - if you are still taking it - is contributing to your depression also did you have a voice like the anorexic voice when you had bulimia ? Congratulations btw for recovering from bulimia , I suppose you feel guilty for not feeling alot better for recovering from bulimia but the body dismorphia you still experience suggests other aspects are still lingering ?

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Don’t feel guilty for being able to function. That sounds like a sign of strength to be able push through the depression and keep functioning. Don’t push too hard though, please be gentle with yourself.

All the best.