Got threw a shitty two weeks dealing with ins co and am feeling more positive. Told myself after the ordeal that I would do my best to enjoy life more. Last night was an amazing night. There's a friend who i see every month or so and we're super into each other. (I think you know what i mean.) Had an amazing night. I wake up, we spend more time together...i feel so sexy and desired and comfortable with him. So he went back to sleep and i found myself crying. I love the time we spend together, i really do but i am sort of sad that it will be over today. I havent felt this way, in such a long time. He knows i have these issues and is very sweet and comforting but ive been having trouble sleeping. I wake up early and thats it. I cant nap anymore or sleep past 8 am. So I'm typing this while he's asleep. I wish i didnt feel this way. I think i need to keep doing things for myself, whether its a new experience or self care. But i dont want to look back at this as a sad experience. I want to remember it as it is and reflect with a happy feeling. any suggestions?