I really shouldn’t have to try so hard to keep living.

[Starrlight]

I just don’t know if I can keep up with this life. I think I’ll call my therapist because I need her to hear me. I need a miracle actually but I don’t believe I’ll get one anymore.

[Agora1]

Hi Starrlight...life should flow from one day into another but unfortunately we are

living in stressful times. By all means call your therapist. Everyone could use a little

extra help during these times. Never stop believing, miracles still do happen. xx

[Starrlight in reply to Agora1]

Thank you for your understanding. It really means a lot to me. I couldn’t manage to call my therapist as I’m afraid to right now. I don’t trust right now. Miracles do happen but it’s hard to believe one will happen in the way I feel I need it to. I’m so tired in life and its hard to admit but I don’t think things are okay and it’s scary but maybe I have to adjust my definition of okay.

[XoxoFaith in reply to Starrlight]

How are you feeling today

[Starrlight in reply to XoxoFaith]

Hi Xoxo! I’m having a worse day than usual. It’s almost unbearable. I am surprised at how much shit I can take sometimes.

How are you?

[XoxoFaith in reply to Starrlight]

Well didn’t have a great day either anxiety was through the rough today and it’s worst because I have to be at work

[Starrlight in reply to XoxoFaith]

What kind of work do you do if you don’t mind telling me? Hope your anxiety settles down.

[XoxoFaith in reply to Starrlight]

I work as a receptionist

[Starrlight in reply to XoxoFaith]

Nice!

[Agora1 in reply to Starrlight]

Starrlight, Miracles and Magic Pills don't just happen especially if there is a stumbling

block in our mind. Trust also plays a big part in getting what we want and need.

Depending what you mean by "I don't think things are okay", you may need to have

that addressed physically or mentally by a doctor. Once that is done you will be able

to adjust your definition of "okay". It may take on a different meaning then. xx

[Starrlight in reply to Agora1]

I wonder what my stumbling block is. Could you explain further? Some belief that keeps me from Letting go and getting better ?

I’m not even sure what okay means maybe that I feel i have things together like running smoothly and feel healthy.

[Elliott_Woods]

Wish I could say something helpful or positive, but I don't want to bore you with the same stuff. So, I love ya! If I could take your pain away... I'd do it in a second ❤️❤️❤️

Sometimes it's hard to keep positive when I'm not feeling all too great. Feel like a hypocrite or something. I don't know. I do hope you heal from this persistent pain.

[Starrlight in reply to Elliott_Woods]

Love you too! You are soooo sweet! I feel better today.

[Elliott_Woods in reply to Starrlight]

Awesome my sista ♥️✌️

[Starrlight in reply to Elliott_Woods]

Yeah sista! Love ❤️ Peace ☮️ Joy ☀️ to you!

[Elliott_Woods in reply to Starrlight]

Ditto! All back at cha ✌️🤗🖤

[Downandout123]

I understand completely what you are trying to say. I feel the same way though, so I just don't have any of the right things to say. Just know that I am thinking of you and hope that you start to see some changes soon.

[Starrlight in reply to Downandout123]

Thank you soooo much and I pray you will be feeling better soon!

[Downandout123 in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you. Honestly, I don't pray anymore. ( I lost my faith), otherwise I'd be praying for you too.

[Starrlight in reply to Downandout123]

I understand. Well I’m hoping for great things for you then my friend! ❤️

[Ddorne]

They are limitless.

[Starrlight in reply to Ddorne]

What is limitless, Ddorne?

[Sandieandie]

I feel exactly the same way. My life just gets more and more difficult. I get up every single day but every day is a struggle. I need to find joy in my life. I am tired of being miserable.

[Starrlight in reply to Sandieandie]

Yes i hear you. I get joy from my kid’s but sometimes even that gets covered over by anxiety. Do you like things like nature or photography, something you can get into that takes your mind to a happy place? It’s hard when feeling so bad nothing seems to work but we can try and may be surprised.

[Hidden]

Well, I’m glad you are here. Thanks for sharing.

Is there anything that makes you smile? Favorite song you have or had? You like cartoons ?

Ever watch comedy? I feel like the only thing I have in life is really cool music artists. And, when I can’t leave the house I play it and I think I’m so cool hahah then I laugh cause i think wow I’m such a loser but, I have the best fn music in my ears.

I do not watch the news it’s ridiculous, I watch comedy.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

My kids are my joy! I have some fav songs yes. Haha I think you are soooo fuuuunny! If you’re a looser I’m a dork. 😉

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Ohhhh good, kids ....that’s so great. Not sure if they younger or older but keep focus on them. Kids keep people busy and can give a sense or motivation. If you let it.

[Hidden]

Thinking of you, Starrlight! I'm glad that you're going to talk to your therapist!

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Thanks MinnieMouse! I haven’t called her I think I’ll wait for my appointment on Thursday unless I start feeling really bad again. How are you?

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Sounds like a plan👍

I'm doing well, thanks for asking!😊

[pink318]

Hi Starrlight,

How are you now? I’m sorry for all you are going through. I hope you are feeling better today. Please let us know the result of your appointment on Thursday.

Keep sharing. Online support groups like this are a big help so you will be less lonely. You are not alone. I found comfort after I posted in one of the online support groups when I was going through empty nest syndrome.

I have a sister who was diagnosed with anxiety and the support group is also a big help to her. Her mood has improved and she’s getting better each day.

Praying for you for peace and strength you need each day. God bless.

[Starrlight in reply to pink318]

You are beautiful. Thanks for your caring kindness. I’m doing better today. I can’t imagine going through that hell every day like yesterday. I have realized I not only forgot to take my morning meds but I had been off of benzos for two days also. It’s hard to cut them in half, they just crumble. I’m not sure if I can get by right now without them.

How are you doing? I feel like it’s been a long time since I’ve seen your name pop up here.

[pink318 in reply to Starrlight]

Hi Starrlight,

I'm doing good. Thank you for asking

I'm happy that you are feeling better today. Continue to share, it makes a big difference when you are here knowing that you are not alone.

[Starrlight in reply to pink318]

True I will thanks!

[Ddorne]

Miracles are limitless.

[Starrlight in reply to Ddorne]

Aaahhh 😊

[Kainan]

Hey Starlight. I think that just making that effort to reach out and talk to your therapist or any small thing that makes your day a little bit brighter is a stepping stone towards that miracle. Because miracles don't happen by accident ✨🙏

[Starrlight]

I’m struggling again. It seems too much. I’m tired. Thanks for the encouragement though, it’s helpful.

How are you?

[Kainan in reply to Starrlight]

Hey I’m doing ok. Tired. Wishing this virus would hurry up and get the hell outta here

[Starrlight in reply to Kainan]

Yup I’m afraid life will not be the same because of Covid.

[Theloudone in reply to Starrlight]

Sending good vibes your way

[Starrlight in reply to Theloudone]

Sending a thank you and good vibes to you too ((((((((

[Hidden]

You sound like me.,,,can I message you?

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Sure! Of course.