Lacking Direction

[lilly1700]

I’ve been trying to do more soul searching recently in a bid to improve my overall mental state and I’ve realized a decent amount of my self hate comes from my lack of motivation or purpose I have felt for over a year now. I recently watched a TED talk on happiness(you don’t find happiness, you create it-by Katarina Blom if you’re interested) that gave me some clarity. I have been trying to pursue higher education recently and have been feeling a lot of societal and professional pressure to walk a specific path. And I have been miserable since. I feel in my gut that the path I am on is not for me and I will not be happy with it as long as I continue. However it is one of the only stable and sure things in my life right now and I have been clinging to that sense of stability that it gives me regardless of the fact I am unhappy. I haven’t changed my course because I feel life I have not other direction or options at this point. I want to follow my own happiness(in general) but I don’t know what that could mean for my future. I am scared to take that leap of faith while everything else in my life is also unstable. Thanks for listening to me vent my worries. I welcome any advice.

[WVArcher]

Be true to yourself. That is what I take pride in. It’s a difficult road but if you can’t be honest to yourself then how can you make a difference to someone else?

[lillyofthevalley37]

Do you have an alternative path that you could actually switch to ?