I wait for the tomorrow Or look backwards to see happiness

[Starrlight]

What if my most important wishes never come true? I always just thought for sure my largest prayers would become alive when it was time for them.... ya know!? And my faith was wild and huge. Well what is here now is meant to be or it wouldn’t be. And I can change what happens and that scares me but it’s hope. I don’t trust for certain any longer. Why am I chasing some happiness up the path there in my mind that I may be able to access right now, but don’t. What stops me? A friend once said to me that things aren’t perfect ya know ...most likely she saw me and how I searched for it...I wait for a perfect world, with a perfect feeling, a perfect image in the mirror, a perfect life. I find myself recalling past joys that I didn’t know at the times were so precious and yet I’m not able to enjoy this present moment now. Get on with it. Get it over with. I guess I’ve gotten myself into a bad place during my journey. I won’t look back on today with pleasure but hopefully will live to be glad that I am away from this time of suffering. But really there is no tomorrow; and we can’t live inside of yesterday.

[Agora1]

Starrlight, your post tells me that you are already growing from your

life's experiences. You're thinking has changed for the good. Maybe

there is a reason that life gives us challenges x

There may never be a perfect world and a perfect life but we can

change who we are by accepting and loving ourselves. What could be

better than that? You are a true gift. There is only one you and that is

reason enough to see perfection. xx

[Starrlight in reply to Agora1]

Thank you beautiful Agora. Accepting, Loving 🥰 those are some wishes, to just be with what is and not fighting.

[Florida1959]

Wise words darling, today is the only surety , I try and live hour by hour, it’s a tough place at the best times, I loves ya xxxxx❤️

[Starrlight in reply to Florida1959]

Living hour to hour is good. Yeah I don’t know how some people see life as easy or see it as fun... I’m so sad about mine right now but hopefully it will help me grow.

[Florida1959 in reply to Starrlight]

I am pretty sad a lot of the time too, but working on it, most of the time it’s others putting me down !,, xxx

[Starrlight in reply to Florida1959]

Don’t believe the lies.

[Florida1959 in reply to Starrlight]

I know but it’s knocking my confidence being put down all the time, darling xx

[Starrlight in reply to Florida1959]

I hear you. I’m sorry. Still, try not to let it creep into your personal beliefs. ❤️

[Florida1959 in reply to Starrlight]

Love you x

[Starrlight in reply to Florida1959]

Love you too! Happy day to you!

[Florida1959 in reply to Starrlight]

Happy Saturday beautiful one x

[Hidden]

Your wishes will do come true if they aren't too unrealistic. At least treating mental health issue is not. It is not quite good thing to recall your past or trust and worry your future. That would have made you even more pessimistic even more than you were. So please don't, I ask. And perfection is a mere thing that you do when you are vulnerable or not confident about your daily life like I was, mate. To be more strong mentally, you have to get enough sleep, exercise, possibly medication, and counselling essentially! Perfection would lead you to excess stress, anxiety, or sometimes depression, so do not make anything perfect. I will also say that it's safe to say perfection doesn't exist even though it really seems like we have ones like John Lennon, Einstein, James Cameron, Elvis Presley, Thomas Bangalter, Miles Davis, Jay-Z, Mozart, Ozzy Osborne, Steve Jobs, and so on.. I think you don't have to be absolute perfect if you are not just thinking about simple success such as treating and getting out of hells like depression and anxiety! Good luck!!

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Thanks. I think my wishes are realistic if you believe in the afterlife.

Yup I was on a good daily schedule but it got messed up I’ll keep aiming high.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Also you might need to visit counselor or doctor to share and have a treatment, if you haven't yet!

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Oh I haaaave lol been into docs and counselors since I was 15 now I’m 43... tired of it

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

I'm happy to hear that!

Stay safe, mate!!

[newbie56]

Hi Star,

I too enjoy looking back, especially when my now adult children were babies.

It's likely because i was MUCH younger with no health issues.

Yet when i actually go back to "bad" times, i still smile & see my ex for what a clown he was. In fact, my present husband & i visited him just 4 days before his death. No regrets ...

Experiences in life are great teachers. Everyone has different experiences but we all want the same things, true peace & lasting happiness to name a few.

For me, it's God's promises, because He's the only one who can satisfy our normal legitimate desires in life. We often take for granted the blessings He delivers on a daily basis.

True, life as we know it can be very difficult but the key to enduring is found in the 'Love Letter' to mankind. Yes, the bible. I've seen lives changed because of the application of the instruction, counsel and principles. We fail to absorb all the gems if merely skim thru a few chapters from time to time. I was guilty of that.

Understanding the many valuable lessons was achieved when i dug deeper and learning never ends. The purpose of life is no longer a secret . The 'search' you mention will help you find the perfect 'tomorrow'.......

Agape

[Starrlight in reply to newbie56]

I think I’ll be picking up my Bible tonight.

[RedBird09]

You nailed it. I feel the as you my friend. Today and this week, Month hasn't been to good to me. My mind is going in circles. I'm stuck in the past. When I was Strong, Independent, Single Mom and Career. Also while my Mother my Rock, My best Friend was sick and dying. I brought my mom home where she passed. I can't get over it. I'm sick and tired of being called Crazy Mental Health Pillhead. My family doesn't get it cause they are on drugs and Don't have a worry in the world. My father definitely doesn't understand he thinks I can control it. He mentally abuse's me saying all sorts of things but he says it in a joking smartass way but I know he means it. My mom was the only one who I could trust and count on. I'm mad sad hurt all at the same time. I wonder if I will ever be the same again. IDK. I'm Tired. But I am thankful for God's blessings.

[Starrlight in reply to RedBird09]

I’m sorry you’re having a rough time plus with family not being supportive. I’m sorry for your loss. I feel like I lost my mom too, to Alzheimer’s. We may never be the same but we can get better in a different life on our journeys.

[RedBird09]

I'm sorry for your loss as well. Thanks for the POSITIVITY! it's hard when your surrand it constantly. My family actually think it is a joke. But tomorrow I will be better. With the help of the Good Lord. Just a bad day, week, month. Like MoM always said. HAVE HOPE! but to be honest some days I'm hopeless. Thanks so much Star. Your an Angel. 👼

[Starrlight in reply to RedBird09]

I’m hopeless feelings most days, like today. Good job-I see you are radiating positivity even when you are suffering so; that’s great to have hope for a better tomorrow. Sounds like your family doesn’t understand the pain you go through. (((((((RedBird)))))) personal message me any time. You are beautiful!

[AlLeYkAt86-]

I know you mean. I’m currently in a situation where the best thing I had is in the past leaving me lost/angry/devastated etc

[Starrlight in reply to AlLeYkAt86-]

I’m so sorry. My heart goes out to you. Things can get better. I’m trying to make better choices but I feel so weak. Do you want to talk more about what bothers you ... I’m always here to listen. Blessings to you beautiful.

[AlLeYkAt86-]

Thank you but nothing helps.

[Starrlight in reply to AlLeYkAt86-]

❤️ ((((((((((hug)))))))))) ❤️

[Starrlight in reply to AlLeYkAt86-]

There must be something that would spark a bit of peace or joy for you...

[AlLeYkAt86-]

Again thank you. I’ve been through every school of thought to improve and it’s just not happening.

[Starrlight in reply to AlLeYkAt86-]

It can still happen maybe when we least expect it things can fall into place.

[NorwegianWood]

Sorry to hear that it's so tough. I don't think happiness is the key goal in life although anxiety/stress is no fun at all. Happiness is hard to pin down. So many artists create beautiful works through their struggles and lack of happiness. May you find perspectives that give you more peace of mind and confidence in your talents to give to others and to change the world in your own beautiful way.

[Starrlight]

Inspirational Norwegianwood