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Feeling down

Today is my birthday and honestly it’s been the worst birthday I’ve had. I turned 21 today, doesn’t even feel like my birthday not to mention I didn’t even get a little cheap birthday cake from my family. I’ve literally been in bed all day. Well I can’t wait for this horrible day to be over. Just thought to write down how I felt.

Update: my birthday ended 20minutes ago and I cried. I feel like I need to let out a cry because I always hold everything in. But I’m much better now I know that my next birthdays I’ll think about myself more and focus on the positives.

Thank you for all the lovely messages

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Ceemulann4 years ago

Thank you

hypercat54• in reply toCeemulann4 years ago

Hi I empathise as my 21st birthday was horrible too. I was fairly new to an area and made 2 'friends' whom I arranged to go out with. They both cancelled on me on the day and I spent it crying alone in my tiny bedsit. I never told my family as I didn't want them to feel sorry for me.

Once I recovered I decided to make up for it my big birthdays would always be special in future. And they have

Happy birthday anyway my love. x

Ceemulann• in reply tohypercat544 years ago

Awwe I’m sorry to hear that, and yes next year I’m going to lose weight and celebrate

hypercat54• in reply toCeemulann4 years ago

Go girl x

Krakatoa18834 years ago

Happy Birthday #21!!! You're right, it should be a very happy day for you. This saddens me every time that I hear someone had a terrible birthday. I've had them too. I can't imagine that everyone out there has had a great birthday every year of their life. Just saying you're not alone. Still sucks though, I know. If I knew you personally, I would have made sure you had a good birthday...cake, ice cream, maybe balloons & a gift of course.

I'll try to do it anyway....🍰 🍨🎈🎈🎈🎁🎉🥳🍹🍻...look at that, I even got party favors & didn't forget the alcohol. Happy birthday my friend wherever you are! Chin up! You have your whole life ahead of you to dread FUTURE birthdays! LOL!

Ceemulann• in reply toKrakatoa18834 years ago

Thank you 🥺❤️❤️❤️

4 years ago

I'm so sorry you're having a hard time on your birthday. It's okay to be upset about that. I find that when I'm sad, it helps to let myself be upset, even let myself cry for a bit. Then after, I do something nice for myself- I watch my favorite movie, take a long bath, have a cup of tea and admire the birds outside my window.I encourage you to do one nice thing for yourself today!

Ceemulann• in reply to4 years ago

Yes, I’m literally crying right now as I type😭🤣 I’m letting it all out so I can have a nice sleep .. but Thank you ❤️I really appreciate it

Jeeper194 years ago

I’m sorry to hear you’re feeling that way, as I felt similar when I turned 21. The feeling of being alone is not a good one but it makes us human to want love and care from the ones we give it too. Maybe going and buying yourself a cheap cake will help you feel better. Sometimes you have to be your own best friend. Your not alone! Practice journaling and be positive about yourself. Go do something you like to do and give yourself a good birthday. We are here for you.

Ceemulann• in reply toJeeper194 years ago

Yes I know next time I’m just going to have to do thing for myself so I’m my own best friend , thank you ❤️

EleanorRose4 years ago

Happy Birthday!

I can empathise, I didn’t have a great 21st birthday. I’d had an awful 18th birthday and so had put a lot of effort into making my 21st special but there’s something about doing it for yourself that isn’t special at all. I spent a lot of my 21st crying on my own. I’ve never really enjoyed birthdays.

I know that doesn’t help you as such but I wanted you to know it’s not just you. I think not enjoying birthdays and having ‘bad’ birthdays is a lot more common than you think, there’s so much expectation for them and then they often turn out just being like any other day.

I’m sorry your day has been horrible, I hope tomorrow is better 🤞🏻

Ceemulann• in reply toEleanorRose4 years ago

Thank you I really appreciate it 💕💕

4 years ago

Sorry you had such a letdown birthday...on the bright side...you still have another 364 days to celebrate this milestone...you can do a "groundhog" day for a full year......make each day your birthday year....happy 21st....when you get to 66 like me...you will wish you were 21 again.

Ceemulann• in reply to4 years ago

Oh aww🥺 thank you so much and you’re right I still have other days I’ll just celebrate my birthday on another day 😅

4 years ago

Hello and happy birthday!!! You are 21 now, you can treat yourself to a beer or something, just don't overdo it!!! I'm so sorry you're feeling like this on your birthday, don't let other people rain on your parade. This is still a very special day and you're a beautiful person. Listen to some music that inspires you. I dedicate We Are Beautiful by Christina Aguilera to you!!! I would try to go to YouTube and put that on here, but I am technologically impaired and I have not yet figured out how to do that on my crazy smartphone. I turned 50 last August, that wasn't very thrilling for me either!!! Hope you start to feel better, we care on here!!!🙂💞💞

Ceemulann• in reply to4 years ago

Thank you so much, I live in the U.K. so my birthday ended 20 minutes ago but I’m happy reading all these sweet messages