Feeling down

[Cat26538]

I’ve been panicking off and on all day. I feel like nobody cares anymore. I hate this so much. I don’t think I’m good enough. I can’t live my life like this anymore.

[Eriq70]

sorry I didn't respond sooner!! Cold water on your hands and face. Breath in and out to the count of four...then..."I'm my only ME... unique and special in ways I don't even realize..and like any masterpiece...full of colors dark and light..bold and subdued..I'm a gift to me and a living form of Hope and humanity. I AM." You are.. seriously. Reset button, start over fresh.

[susanjo613 in reply to Eriq70]

I love that advice!

[Eriq70 in reply to susanjo613]

I also give free hugs! Ones waiting for you!

[susanjo613 in reply to Eriq70]

awwww...........I could really use one

[old-soul]

Try stating the exact opposite of each thing you said and ask yourself which message is more beneficial. For example, you said you have panicking on and off all day today, so wouldn't it be safe to say that you have also have had periods free of panic on and off all day today too?

You stated you feel no-one cares anymore, which we both know is untrue, so isn't it safe to say, "I feel there are people who DO care?"

An important point about that though, cat26538, as much as people care, I know for a fact that if others are working harder at healing you than you are, they will give up because they must, not because they want to.

So, maybe write the opposite of everything in your post here and tape it up on your bathroom mirror for starters. It should say:

"I’ve been free of panic off and on all day. I feel like people DO care. I love this so much. I am good enough. I can live my life like this."

It has been over 3 years since I have had safe and affordable housing, most of the time without electricity, running water or reliable heat. Think of that. No bath tub or shower to use. No sink. No toilet even. Through all of that I have been able to find things to be grateful for, such as a moment the morning sun actually felt warm on my face, in spite of the fact that it was freezing cold out and I was shivering. When I didn't have access to running water, I was EXTREMELY grateful when I had enough gallon hugs full of water they is safe to drink.

I think it would serve you well to actually write a list of 50 things you are grateful for. If you have a home, There's a good one. If you have not been forced to go hungry for weeks at a time, There's a good one. If you have electricity and lights in your home, There's a good one. If you love the way the spring grass feels on yohr feet when you walk bare-foot in it, There's a good one to list, ect.

No-one can DO it for you. You have to be tired enough of feeling awful to become willing to do these things for yourself when yoh don't really want to. That's not a judgement, it's just the truth.

You allowing yourself to believe no-one cares is a lie you are telling yourself. We're that true, why would people still be trying to help you learn to do what we also all have to do to help ourselves? Still, you knkw the old saying, "You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make the horse drink."

If you don't and won't heed the good advice given, you will find that NO-ONE is strong enough to do everything for you, and it just seems to be a pattern I am seeing.

Trust me, I have been in the same place, and I am telling you from my own experience that nothing ever changed for me unless I was willing to do some things differently.