Anxiety getting the best of me

[Strongest123]

Hi everyone on here. I hope everyone had a great weekend. I haven’t posted in quite sometime, and well I think it’s time I do. I’ve been struggling lately with my anxious, and negative thoughts. I see a therapist once a week and I see an APN once a month. This morning for some reason I woke up really anxious. I don’t know why. And of course I did something I should be doing like drinking a triple dose of espresso. I’m an avid weightlifter- bodybuilder and I wanted to make sure that I trained this morning. I also have my daughter with me today and I’m helping her with her online classes. She gives me a hard time in the morning with her classes, she’s really not into the whole online thing. When my daughter gets like this it makes things so hard for me, trying to lift, trying to not cry, and trying to help her without losing it. I did get to finish my workout even though it was extremely difficult today. I try and tell my daughter that I wasn’t feeling too good and I needed her to listen, but I guess at times she doesn’t get it. I love her and absolutely adore her but she’s still young and doesn’t quite understand. Thank you. SAMSON.

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Hi Samson

To me it seems you understand everything about depression but maybe wanted to let things out. That is what we need sometimes. I love the fact that even when you feel enxiety you still stay true to your course. You seem like one who is constistant in what they do no matter what. I see you exercise even when the body is not in the mood, u help ur daughter even when enxiety does not allow that. Well, hang in there. We are always here for you

[Strongest123 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you very much I appreciate the support. I’ve always been a glass half full instead of half empty type of person.

[Gentlespirit]

What grade is your daughter in and does she have a few books that she reads for enjoyment other than schoolbooks.? I believe the library is open again and books can be requested online so you can pick them up. Is she into crafts? Hobby Lobby Amazon and Walmart have inexpensive crafts available to order online. I applaud you for sticking to your workout. Take care

[SirGrits]

Yeah bro, I agree with the others. It seems like you're doing the right things for the right reasons and with intentionality too. I'm guessing you needed to vent. Impressive stuff really; a loving dad that's keeping himself together. Hang in there bro, you've clearly got this.God speed.

[Sadmama]

My youngest daughter is 25 and she still doesn’t get when I need something. Your kids will never love you like you love them. Just focus on getting through the moment when things are tough and enjoy the times when they are good. I don’t mean to sound negative. The love for your kids really does trump everything else. It is just hard some days. Remember that the hard days will pass.

[Agora1]

Hi Strongest123, I wouldn't come down too hard on yourself right now.

Your anxiety is in overtime. How can it not be with this virus continuing as

well as children still doing home schooling (with the help of their parents)

It's a very stressful responsibility all parents have on their shoulders right now.

I would think to the point of cancelling out your weigh lifting efforts in getting some

"me time" in. (which is conflicting when "we time" is also going on)

I would say though, that having those shots of expresso is definitely adding fuel to the fire.

Remember that the kids are really confused and frustrated as well. The only time we wore

a mask was on Halloween. These poor kids today are having adult like situations thrown at them and so I feel for both you and your daughter.

I agree in that she is so young that she doesn't understand dad not feeling well due to an emotional issue. Children can't understand what they don't see. Heck, even adults we know don't understand lol

What might help is letting her know when school is over for the day, she gets to do something she likes to do or gets a special treat. During that time, dad gets to escape

for a while with a much needed nap. Both win. Right now it's going to have to be a give and take resolution or your anxiety will continue to climb.

No one or nothing is really at fault here. It happens to be the time we are living in right now.

Remember, when we can't do anything about the situation, we have to accept it as it is for now. As someone else stated, this to shall pass. Namaste my friend. Peace and Calm be with you. xx