I have a big decision to make soon, what medication is right for me. I know everyone reacts differently. From 2007 till 2010 I took loads of different medications. Mood stabilisers, antidepressants, antipsychotics.
I finally got off them all after my weight was out of control and I was literally a walking zombie and just wanted to sleep and eat. That’s no existence.
I vowed never to go back on medication. I found out my radical behaviour was due to manic switch. I go really high or really low on medications. I suffer terrible side effects. I’m sensitive to them as well.
I’m trying to work with new psychiatrist, she has suggested both mood stabilisers and antipsychotics. She doesn’t want me to get the manic switch reaction. She’s looked into my history.
I’m just so depressed and anxious, I’m getting worse.
I know I need some medication. But I found allot of the meds enhanced my dream state, which is the worst for me as the PTSD dreams are what I’m trying to get rid of.
I’m trying minipress, they are a form of meds that lower my blood pressure at night for a deeper sleep and I can’t honestly tell if they are helping. As soon as something sets my anxiety off, I’ve still had the dreams. So I don’t think I need to keep taking them.
This is such a horrible state to be in. Knowing I need meds, but having to go through all the ups and downs and side effects again is so overwhelming. I’m so low thinking that’s going to be my new year. Medicated