So I’ve applied many times for Social Security Income before , always denied. I never fully understood why I was denied -something I think to do with dates of when I stopped working or when I was hospitalized and when I applied I actually don’t know. Maybe because I continually tried working for small stretches of times after my major breakdown. Maybe there was no good reason to be denied at all. Yeah that one.
I am going through the process again and will be looking through old papers trying to make sense of it all. My memory for sequence of events is bad so good thing I think I kept all the papers.
So in the past this kind of thing had given me so much anxiety and I feel it now. I don’t want to go back to that place of panic and fear. I’m a stronger person now. But still I fear they will find a reason to take my insurance my family has now away but I guess there’s no reason behind that fear.
I guess I’ll just keep reminding myself that I could get SSI or not and what is meant to be is going to be.
I think the huge part of my anxiety over this situation is that I’ll be looking back on the past traumas and breakdowns and hospitalizations recorded in these papers. But I’ll try to keep in mind that I am strong now and I will go at my own pace.
Thanks for listening. Any suggestions on how to handle all the upsetting memories floating back please share.
Thanks friends!
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Hi Starrlight, you never appealed the outcome of previous filings?
Where I live it’s extremely difficult to prove disability, it’s only 4 in 10 that get approved. Have you considered getting legal representative to help you?
Maybe getting a legal representative could help your anxiety? If you have to relive past events, maybe try to remember how far you’ve come since those events. Wishing the best outcome for you. 💜🌺
I entered a study of bipolar patients, and, at the beginning, I had to go over my whole history as a bipolar patient. It made me realize more fully than I ever have how I've been victimized by this disability, that life is harder than my rosy optimism will allow. In fact, just writing this makes me despair. I try to dwell on the present, to solve the problems of today, to keep a set of tools for dealing with stress and mood, and to forget my history of mistakes and misfortune. But, when I unearthed the past, I ended up on a years long cycle of mood swings. So if I could give advice it would be to do this exercise with a therapist who knows the risks.
Oooohhhhh I got confused there. I got a letter asking about if I wanted to try for SSI I but they are trying to figure out if I’m disabled. Wha? What’s the difference?
Ooooooh low income, they asking me about my medical history like hospitalizations etc and meds I take? My husband thinks we make too much but I’ll just go forward with it and see... I hope my doc backs me up especially since I’ve been doing better lately, I’ll have to talk to him about this.
From what I understand if you don't have medical back up for your disability you are offered the opportunity to get SSIBut they will look at what you have to see if you can live off of that.
Example
I had a friend who had back problems out on ssdi for one year. At the end of the year the medical documents no longer backed her up for ssdi
So she was offered to apply for SSI as an income supplement. She did not qualify because she had assets she could sell and a property she could rent.
I could be wrong so give it a google. They are def two different things
Thank you for being so kind and reaching out to me when I posted. I hope to do the same for you. I applied for SSDI and it has been ongoing since October. I don't have as much past history and I"m figuring, given the current events I might not qualify. Have you considered finding a SSDI advocate group that will apply on your behalf?
Hi! I’ve already worked with advocates so now I’m working with a case manager. I work fine by myself actually. Just to have my therapist to talk to and my psychiatrist hopefully back me up you know, whatever I mean I’ll try but what is for me will be what’s not won’t so I’m trying not to s worry. Thanks. Best to you Needhelp2z
Take it one day at a time. We all know looking back creates anxiety. Please be careful. It creates that depression also. Live for the money for now. Get out of that darkness of looking back. Have gratitude for now. I’m sorry your going through these hard times. I thank you for sharing
Thanks your concern means a lot. You’re right, I’m going to do my best to live in the now. I think I’ll meditate since I haven’t done any yet today. Best to you!
When I have anxiety I lay on my couch without my phone and use a weighted blanket. Calms me
Hi Starlight. Listen, I receive SSD and SSI. It was not easy for me to get these benefits, and I don't get very much per month. I also receive food assistance. From my perspective, if you can work you are really better off working. I'm 50 now and I am tired of all the government paperwork. Do not think I am lucky in any way here. I honestly really want to get totally off of it and work a full time job.
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