Overthinker

I have always try to fit in Im always the loud friend that is friend with everybody . The friend that will always be there for you to vent or have a shoulder to cry on. This year I reach my breaking point and knew I need help because harming myself and having thoughts of dying wasn't something I wanted to tell anybody I always had this belief that I was evil and dint deserve people to love me back. So finally on march I told my friend which she then told a teacher Honestly aint gonna lie Im grateful she did. I ended getting hospitalize and started on medications. came out of the hospital schools shut down all my friends texted me if I was ok . felt shitty (medication were making me worse) started smoking drinking being a freaking disaster. All my ¨friends¨ dont talk to me except for one. Its really sad how people leave you when you need them the most. Im glad I found this site I have meet very supportive and amazing people . so here is a drawing I made dont know what I was making but I see it as an example of how beauty dosnt have to be what you always expect. Just like life is spontaneous. Goodnight everyone. (also probably will share some poetry soon & I love reading poems so if you guys wanna share feel free to )

[Agora1]

Goodnight Joselinem123 x

Wishing you the peace and calm of a good night's sleep xx

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

thank you 💙

[Tillymay]

That’s beautiful joss.your far from evil.Your kind and caring and I’m so pleased you got help.Its best to have one true friend in life.Than having lots of fake and nasty ones.your a good person.I really don’t care if you drink and smoke that doesn’t change who you are inside and people shouldn’t judge you! They don’t know what’s coming to them in life.Take care and you have a friend in me! Xxx

[Hidden in reply to Tillymay]

Thank you. You just made my morning 🥰

[Tillymay in reply to Hidden]

I’m pleased I’ve made your morning.Thats my good deed done for today.😊

[Hidden in reply to Tillymay]

Im greatful I have you in my life Tillymay! your a wonderful person ❤️💙💜💚💛🧡

[Tillymay in reply to Hidden]

So are you joss I’m thankful I’ve got people like you xxx😊

[Hidden]

Thank you so much for taking time to read it ! hope Having a great morning. 🙃

[teen_anxiety]

I like the drawing. To me, it shows beauty and captivity within oneself. Also about your friends, I am sorry but perhaps they did not know how to be a friend thru this maybe they were afraid they would act differently because of everything and so they thought it best to back out then treat you differently.

[Hidden in reply to teen_anxiety]

Pretty shitty of them tough I have always been the strong friend but when I broke they dint know how to react.

[teen_anxiety in reply to Hidden]

Not everyone can be as tough as you, but I am truly sorry you have to go thru all of this.

[EllaAlexandra]

The drawing looks like a dancer and is beautiful. I think life is complicated in that way, when we need it most, it is hardest to get that support. What is helpful for me, is to think that our external life is a mirror of our internal life. So the more I support myself and show up for myself, the more others will do too. You are a sociable person!