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i might sound like broken record but i feel so alone and yes i can b alone but im hurting no friends no family 34 yr old guy that feels so depressed like no one cares bout me no one wants to be a friend no one wants to love me d@m i feel so alone i dont want to live like this anymore seriously whats wrong with me,,bout to post a picture of me just to see what people say by my picture whats wrong with me dont wish this to anyone but why me,seriously whats wrong with me some say im too nice ive been cheated on ,left because someone says im too quiet or too nice why arent i good enough for anyone yes im crying but i never cheated or hurt anyone so why am always feeling this ? whats wrong ? not good enough for anyone ? dont want to live like this anymore 😔

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hi im sorry your so unhappy ive left before and just come back so i dont see the point in leaving or thinking it, im no expert on depreshion but where theres life theres hope i was in bad place once well many times and things changed im ok now you are cared for on here sending a hug 🤗🌟

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Arymretep

Hi , the thing is not everyone likes everyone , and you can’t please everyone all the time, we just have to be ourselves , there’s a saying , how can you love anyone else if you don’t love yourself , so we have to learn to love ourselves first. Take care

in reply to Arymretep

so true my mam tought me that 💛

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Khamoshi

Hey, First of all dont think you are alone in this world. I know things have been tough for you but still there are people out there who love you unconditionally. Things can take time but the new life, new hope, new love, new journey is waiting for you. You never what tomorrow will bring for you. So dont loose hope, believe in God and there is people like you who believe in loyalty and you will also find the same person exactly like you with the same feelings which will be pure and will be there forever.

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Marysblue

I feel this very same way a lot of times. I have been left out, dumped on. Maybe it's because I have difficulty liking myself that people don't show me much respect. But their lack of care can make me like myself less. A majority of people just don't care that much about other people. I think people with depression are more sensitive, caring and we get excluded because we're different or people are jealous of our sensitivity.

This is a good group with people that understand what you're going through and don't judge you or look down on you. You will find a lot of help here.

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SayNOtoPanic in reply to Marysblue

wow perfectly said

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hello i would rather be sensitive than insensitive and nasty, some dont know how to love or care for others and there often the lonliest,🤷and we dont always need to be lonely if we can have a animal companion, those that dont care wouldnt find this a comfort,🤗🐯

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Starrlight

✨💜❤️💜✨ please feel better

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Tara52

I know it's a difficult time for you but if you keep learning about yourself, growing and developing self confidence you will attract someone. A healthy woman wants to be around a happy, stable self confident man. You sound like a nice person but you have to be happy being alone with yourself first. Look to God for comfort and fellowship, He's always with you.💗

It's hard being a guy. Check this out.

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Boston001 in reply to Nothing_but_books

That's an awesome share!

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Doelioness

Just please know you are amazingly awesome and most of us feel this way at time my heart goes out to you

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SayNOtoPanic

You’re not alone. It’s ok to think these things or feel them. You’re human and you’re aware of your emotions and thoughts and worries. Just take a deep breath, wrap yourself in positive mantras and focus on them. You will attract the goodness and hopefully little by little you will see positive and change. Don’t be so hard on yourself. And you know people can suck, don’t let them define you. Hugs and prayers.

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BlueStar7

I’m sorry you feel that way. I’m here if you need to talk and others are here for you too. Not everyone will like us, but that’s ok. I’m also very quiet sometimes and people see that I’m different. It’s mainly the issues I deal with that make me come off that way. I’m very open about my mental health. I usually apologize and tell them what I deal with and that it may come off a certain way, but I don’t mean for it too. Not if someone truly cares about me, they would see that mental health is real and they would still want to be around. Those that left you, take it as a good thing because you deserve good people (we’re all imperfect, but I’m sure you understand what I mean). Have you tried looking for community groups at all? I’m thinking of joining a community group where people meet together and discuss mental issues they go through. This place is great, but I feel like I’m person would be good too. Anyway, I am here for you. Feel better, and remember you are worth a lot. You matter. God made You and I care (as do others here).

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AXXES2 in reply to BlueStar7

Thank you I appreciate you

Axxes, Hi, it’s me, (previously KellyKay). So sorry for disappearing on you. Not a very good virtual mom to leave you hanging. Don’t ever think you are too nice. The world needs more of ppl like you. You’re going to find someone who will love you for YOU. Don’t go changing thinking that will make things better. Patience my friend.

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Hey I'm glad to hear from you thank you

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Boston001

I've read a lot of the replies here. I'm not very good at Cliches or Platitudes, and I'm definitely not a spiritual man but I can absolutely relate with what you are writing.

In some regards everybody is different we all have our own back story (Nature). And in other regards, people are tribal and competitive (Nurture). Ever since I was a little kid, I have been a people watcher, and for no other reason than I knew I was different from them. 57 years of watching people has taught me about tribes. There is the family tribe, the school tribe the team tribe. the social tribe, list goes on. There is a very real reason why this is part of Human Nature. Not so long ago in human history, we were all split up into little tribes with 10 to 40 people. We didn't have cities with millions of people and countries with hundreds of millions of people. The rules to life were very simple back then, build a shelter, gather food, and propagate the population of the tribe. And anybody outside of your tribe was competition. And within your tribe, there was a hierarchy. To use a Star Trek NG as an analogy: Captain Picard, Will Riker, Data, Worf, Geordi, and Deanna Troi in that order. Everyone else on the crew were Red Shirts and replaceable.

I have a few people I consider lifelong friends and family. But I only hear from them when they need something, or they see something I have posted on Facebook, and they click like. Everybody seems to be walking around in their own private bubble, unless someone bumps into their bubble they aren't real. Last week during therapy, I shared with my therapist that he and my 90 year old mother were the only people that I talked to on a regular basis. This week, he canceled his session with me because it snowed. Keep in mind, my therapy sessions with him are "on the phone" and what slippery roads have to do with having a conversation on the phone is beyond my comprehension. From the way I see it, there are a lot of people out there that I am lucky not to have in my life. Just turn on the evening news and watch it for half an hour, and you'll will see what I'm talking about.

If you haven't figured it out by now, I'm not feeding you an inspirational story that'll change your life, or giving you any guiding advice that will bring sunshine into your world. I'm just an ordinary guy, sharing with you my perspective from where I sit. What am I doing about it? Medication, therapy, creating a routine, and sticking to it, getting outside with fresh air, Exercising, and most of all, moving forward with the knowledge that I made it through another day, being the "Me" that I can admire even if no one else notices.

in reply to Boston001

Great reply. Sounds like Axxes could really use your wisdom right now. He’s like a son to me and just want him to find happiness. I know how you feel about therapy canceling due to weather and I live in state with no snow! Rain or traffic is the excuse I get.

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AXXES2 in reply to Boston001

Thank u sir

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SayNOtoPanic in reply to Boston001

What a beautiful responses Boston and story to share. I’m sure that meant a lot to AXXES and others here. Definitely touched me. Appreciate you.

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b1b1b1

well, AXXES2, I like you and I always pay attention to your posts. I think you are very interesting and very honest about your feelings. In a nutshell, you are admirable. Don't leave. You would be missed. I know I would miss you. xx

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AXXES2 in reply to b1b1b1

Thank u for ur kind words u guys make me feel special to the point where tears bout to come down my cheeks

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b1b1b1

Crying can be good. Glad they are happy tears.

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