After this post I am trying to step back a little, do the simple small things, and be an observer for a bit I think as I am then trying to reconnect with myself others and things like starting from scratch sort of. I just am in such a strange feeling spot. I don’t know. It’s really difficult to explain and I can’t even tell good from bad sensations and thoughts right now. Things are so strange to me right now. I dont feel like me, really Some inner changes I think maybe. I have many contradictory feelings and ways of thinking and I am just so overstimulated right now. There is also a lot going on with my physical health like I haven’t slept much due to restless leg syndrome. My body is maybe still adjusting to a new med of a few weeks ago I started as well Sigh there’s too much in my crazy head ya know there’s my voice telling me to do things constantly and it doesn’t seem very normal like it’s random chatter that doesn’t make sense... but I it’s like it’s boldly talking to me to be heard like it’s not exactly me but like there’s two of me... well I am seeing my psychiatrist tonight. Maybe he can give me something for my syndrome but I am wondering if that is going to turn into another problem which sometimes happens well I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it. I also think I have more cysts in my overlies. It’s just a lot right now you know. I hug my mom every time I see her and she smiles every time. So that is what I’m trying to focus on is doing the little things with love. Because the rest is just making me crazy. 🙃 thanks for listening
Just a lil about what’s up with me - Anxiety and Depre...
Starrlight, you know I support you in whatever decision you make. We all need to
take care of our own issues first. Only you know when the time is right. I many times
observe from the background just because I need to breathe and gather my thoughts.
Use this "me time". Look around you and appreciate the things you have in your life.
Your mind is kind of going in a lot of different directions right now. It happens.
Good Luck with your appointment tonight. Remember we are here for you privately
or on site. You are loved and cared about by your virtual family. Much love, xx
Sometimes we need to get rid of the junk and move quickly back to what is good. Love is healing; you got this as they say. We have to manage our health.
Best of luck to you! Take as much time as you need for yourself, take all the time in the world reconnecting with the things you love, and finding new ones as well. As you know I'm starting over from scratch and some thought I had fallen off the face of this Earth for the last year, but it's the upmost important thing for me to do right now is to be spending time on myself, learning to be kind, love and give back and, most importantly take care of myself! These are all things I hadn't put in practice through out my lifetime so far and I'm almost not capable on focusing on myself without effort and practice. It seems silly, it doesn't seem to make any difference but they say routine and structure is how we learn the very best. I hope to learn to care for and love myself again, I hope you find what you're looking for in your travels! Good luck to you I hope you return here, as you've been very supportive to me and I'm sure many others. Best wishes.
Awww you are sweet. I think you so deserve the care for yourself. I’m so restless and I am just trying to deep breathe myself into a better place right now. I was just caring for a new born bird today and lost him and it’s so sad. Other things are getting to me too and my motivation is low and I’m frustrated. But I think it will all get better. Best to you take care my friend. ❤️
Oh those kind of friends can be tricky...keep your power girl!
It feels so good to get things done & by yourself....even better, ha!
I have so many flowers to plant ..well it's silly really..but I love it..Killer Cool...I have to keep taking breaks due to my back...but it's all good...
I just may give some plants to my baby girl....saw her last night & she may be back again today...got to play with the 2 pits & yorkie...gees how I love em..but happy to say goodbye, ha! They were all about me last night...too much fun!
Dump trucks of love, peace, light, joy n hugs for you!!!