I just had my weekly video therapy deal. Within ten minutes I was crying because she was hitting so many trigger emotional buttons that I thought were just lucky hits.. I'm sensitive about certain things, like why I've always felt like an outsider even within family gatherings, or school. Just always. Vivid memory when I was five that this started. I'll skip details. It felt like a lot of consecutive bullseyes in a row for me to cry about.
Then she suggests I look up a certain personality disorder after the session, and just fuck. I thought my problems were unique but now I fit into this nice little box, a label for my personality disorder. I'm stunned. It's like learning you have a different name than the one you thought, and other people knew but didn't say anything.
Maybe this is a milestone that I can now finally pinpoint my issues rather than just the general depression I've always had. Maybe this is the explanation for my impulses and I can relearn how to act differently. My mind is going all over the place. I suddenly feel less lost..? wtf just happened. just baffled.
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They say you can't solve a problem until you know what the problem is. That's where the labels come in. Once you've labeled something, you can figure out what the next step is.
I hope you find that now you know the name of the personality disorder, you can learn more about your specific challenge, and it will be easier to deal with.
hello, I thought I would write and say Im sorry that Your therapist threw that at you Personalty Disorder ,,,,This happened to me when I was 26yrs in front of a so called group therapy session ,i was heading towards alcoholism ,thats when I found out what was wrong as I was puzzled----the psychanalyst told me to look up a certain disorder ,that was approx 50yrs ago-----Im quit familiar with the Pdisorders,there are 10-if you would like to tell me your story .......and maybe help you understand better!
Thank you for relating to me. Group therapy is not the time or place for that, and neither was the last words of a therapy session, it's almost as if they don't know how emotional something like that label can be. Over the last week I have read enough and come to terms with it. But I can expand it a little. The disorder told me that I was Rigid and a perfectionist. Both things I have never once considered for myself. But all the evidence was there. It was pretty obvious in hindsight. I now know that I don't have an extreme case and for that I am very lucky. Just admitting/understanding that I can't be spontaneous without a panic attack or that I need lists for things has helped a lot. among many other things I never noticed. Didn't know it was that simple.
Thankyou,it wasnt so bad after all as you said it was hurtful and it sure hit home ,not very pleasant and you are now dealing with it ,I have become a better person via emotional intelligence,though that does not mean everything in the garden is rosie-we all need an overhaul,people can get very complacent ,learning to be humble--and of course perfection ,surely incorporates,everything you touch ,anyway thanks again ,nice talking to you ....you seem to be on the right pathwayor heading in the right direction....
I always have a good cry after my video chats with my therapist. You nailed it - he hit many emotional issues for me. Some of them I don't want to talk about just yet. One call he got into some stuff and I just said, "I don't want to talk anymore" and wanted to hang up, but I waited until he scheduled my next appointment. At that appointment he started by saying, "You seemed pretty angry with me last time"....No shit Sherlock! Went after issue a different way and got resolved issue. But I always cry.......
Thank you for your support. Same thing happened to me! I wanted to end a session early and they were offended the next week. But they end my sessions early all the time. Ditched that therapist, other reasons too. Thanks for reminding me that it's good to cry when I need to.
Was she being cruel, or doing her job appropriately and happened to get you where it hurts? Regardless, it sounds like a very upsetting experience. I've had patients in my office sobbing and it broke my heart cause I know in the moment they are in a very deeply painful place. I saw this post is a few months old and wanted to ask, have you found your answers? How are you?
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