Basically I joined the ADAA for I can talk to people with the same health issue as me. I’ve had this issue since I was in my teens and soon I’ll be in my 40’s. I label myself as having an anxiety disorder with panic attacks and agoraphobia. I feel like my life sucks seeing people do the things I want to do, and I think to myself every day how I wish I was normal or feel normal, but I don’t know what normal is anymore. I’ve lived my life always worrying , thinking and feeling these anxiety that sometimes I wished I wasn’t here anymore (like not being born or sleep and never wake up). These anxiety makes me isolate myself from others ( and yes you’ve guessed it, I have no friends) but again is due to my fears of what if’s. What if I have a panic attack at the mall or work, what if I cry in front of others cause they don’t understand me, what if I pass out due to these anxiety. I don’t know who else to talk too. I live my life is secret...at home I’m always serious and sad, and outside smiling and happy, when inside my head plays the what if’s nonstop. So again just here to talk to others with similar issues as me and to see how do you cope with it.
Thanks for reading my crazy issues
So sorry you have felt crappy for so
long. Isn't it good to talk to people who truly understand? Has any medication ever helped your anxiety? Social isolation is awful, isn't it? I'll be glad to talk with you again.
Hi Matgrg, thanks for reading my story. When I was in my teens I took meds but stop for 15 years thinking I didn’t need them. But in the course of the last three years my anxiety started to act up so bad that I needed to start taking medication. Does it help Idk. All these years I just know my body that when I feel bad I down and out. The social isolation is due to the fear of places that I’ve developed over the years. I fear everything...lol! I know it’s not funny but if I don’t ever laugh. I would really good crazy.
Does it seem like we always expect the worst thing to happen? I would love to make these thoughts stop, but I can't seem to do it. I know I am my own worst enemy!!
So true!! I don’t know you but I hope that you stay strong. Living life like this is not easy. If we don’t help ourself, who will. It’s taken me a long time to understand this. If I give up on myself I’m dead.