Borderline personality

[Hibiscuslotus]

Does anyone else know of borderline personality disorder? It basically is like being two different people. One is the normal healthy person and the other is full of rage and pain. I struggle a lot. My generalized anxiety is so severe it causes me to just black out when I'm alone and rage out. I feel so alone. Does anyone understand me?

[Isinatra]

Have you been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder by a professional?

[Hibiscuslotus in reply to Isinatra]

I will be seeing a psychiatrist and I’ll report back. Maybe my dad being a chomo and my mom abandoning me s when I was a child isn’t much to worry about. Also the fact that I have commitment issues with jobs, friends, and partners. My life is push and pull. I’ll let the specialist determine it. Thank you.

[SweetTea61]

I'm listening to the Borderline Personality Disorder the Survival guide for those with the disorder and those that love them, something like that. It says to be diagnosed by a professional. If you have been then I would read the book or one like it. I am more than like two people and I'm not raging for just any reason. When I get angry, I do become a different person but I avoid that. DBT helped me tremendously! It's not as bad as it sounds. It's not a great diagnosis but it's treatable.

[Hibiscuslotus in reply to SweetTea61]

DBT is a lost cause for me. Got the book and everything. I do enjoy “I hate you don’t leave me” that’s a good read. Thank you.

[SweetTea61 in reply to Hibiscuslotus]

It's an actual intensive outpatient program. I don't think I could have gotten much done by just reading, I'd done that for years. It's a tough diagnosis...make sure that's what you are dealing with by seeing a professional. It's pretty serious

[Hibiscuslotus in reply to SweetTea61]

I am almost being evicted for my “splitting tantrums”. It is pretty bad.

[SweetTea61 in reply to Hibiscuslotus]

You need to get help from professionals. That's what I had to do. I'm now in a loving relationship, after 16 years single because I needed to calm down my BPD so I could deal with an intimate relationship. It's not always been easy and I see a therapist who is trained in DBT and am looking for more support. It's not easy to live with a personality disorder. And I have depression and anxiety disorders so.

[Hibiscuslotus in reply to SweetTea61]

I love a community for mental wellness literally don’t believe me. Y’all see one small description versus all of the challenges I’ve faced. Maybe I’m bipolar and I’m abusive and everything bc i just have anxiety right? Really disappointed

[Hibiscuslotus in reply to SweetTea61]

I go through EXTREME mood swings DAILY. When I perceive someone to reject me from something so small I go way out and I turn dark and find every way to push this person out just to pull them back in hours later after I’ve been done dissociating and being a cunt to people I love. I have no one left in my life. I pushed everyone away. I’ll go to a professional instead of letting strangers make me feel invalid about my struggles.

[Hibiscuslotus in reply to SweetTea61]

thanks for being insensitive. Also I’ve ditched my therapist of 3 years.

[lovemydoggy]

Idk if you’re in treatment, but if not you should be seeing a therapist with experience in personality disorders. Therapy is the most effective treatment, especially DBT. It is often hard to differentiate between BPD and Bipolar Disorder. It is important to get a definitive diagnosis. If you have the DBTis defiantly the go to treatment. At least to begin. As SweeTea61 says it is treatable.

[Hibiscuslotus]

I feel hopeless. I want to get better I do. There’s so much unprocessed junk. I will be seeing a psychiatrist who can refer me if need be. Thank you.