Loneliness - living by myself - holidays -

[Shnookie]

Hi it’s Shnookie. I have lived in my apt by

myself since my mom died from pancreatic

cancer in January 2016. I went thru a bereavement group, went back to

working, etc. but this year especially during

COVID and being stuck in the house 4

so long has emphasized this. And because COVID has hit me so hard financially I’m trying to keep my head above water.

Even with my deep breathing exercises,

light walking,etc especially late at night when I have insomnia it hits me. The advertisements on TV 📺 constantly showing families together. I understand this but I have a fractured family. I understand this and take the love and support where I can get it. I’m Jewish

And know the vast proportion of the

Population is gentile but one Chanukah commercial would be cool 😎 and there’s nothing for Keanza as well. Some things

that I yearn 4 R totally impractical 4 me

now. I yearn for a boyfriend not for sex as much right now but rather hugging and kissing and the intimacy. Right now

I’m not in this position because at times, I’m just keeping my head above the water.

And having ADHD hypersensitivity

doesn’t always help. So I’ll go back to

listening and watching Andrea Bocelli

singing beautifully the sensuous bolero

Besame Mucho and know that my life goes on and that I need to achieve my goal

of total self reliance and enjoying the support I get from this group

Hugs 🤗 Shnookie

[b131]

Music can be so powerful and healing. Stay strong and hope you can take comfort in knowing you are not alone in how you are feeling.

[Shnookie in reply to b131]

Thank U for your beautiful supportive response. U R correct there R other people who R feeling lonely now as well.

I’m getting ready to go to work. Might play a short song b4 I leave.

Have a good day. Hugs 🤗 S