Not doing good at all

[Barking_Kitten]

Long story.Getting divorced because I act and behave like my mother.

Diagnosed with CPTSD and Major Depressive Disorder, among other things.

I'm also having difficulty at work and as an added extra bonus, I have severe back issues with 24/pain.

I'm lost, scared and just don't know what to do.

No friends due to social anxiety and no family because I chose to stay away from their abusive toxicity.

I barely make it through a workday and then just go home and sit in my room.

I had to move in with a friend at his house, so I'm on edge worrying that I am in their way.

I need help and have no one but myself.

I just don't know how much longer I can do this.

[Dolphin14]

Barking_Kitten

Welcome to the community.

I see therapy in your bio. Are you active in therapy at this time?

I'm sorry you feel lost and scared.

We are here to support you

❤️🐬

[Barking_Kitten in reply to Dolphin14]

Not really. Had visits via video conference, but didn't feel like I was getting anywhere. I'm just drifting along with the motions of everyday life. I don't have anyone to talk to. I'm about to reach the end of my rope. 😮‍💨

[Dolphin14 in reply to Barking_Kitten]

It sounds like time for some intervention. I'm not sure what that would be for you.

Do you watch any helpful you tubes or read any self help books?

CPSD needs some intense therapy.

[Barking_Kitten]

I agree some form of intervention would be helpful, but I can't motivate myself to do much of anything. With everything being so overwhelming for me, it just ends up being a repetitive pattern of work then go home and sit and watch TV. I'm so lost that I'm terrified to do anything.

Married for almost 26 years and now that that is ending, I have no support system, friends or family.

[Downinil]

Welcome, Barking_Kitten! You feel alone but you have us now. Reach out anytime.

[Barking_Kitten in reply to Downinil]

I don't remember where I found this site, but I'm trying to find help. Basically throwing out a lifeline hoping someone grabs the other end. I'm a mess due to my childhood.

[Downinil in reply to Barking_Kitten]

I’m grabbing the other end of your lifeline now. Feel free to DM me if you’d be more comfortable or we can chat here.

[HisChild4ever]

I am very sorry! I believe that talking with a good therapist regularly helps, and I hope that you are able to find one who cares genuinely. Also, Celebrate Recovery is a 12-step program that has weekly meetings in many areas and is very helpful. It's important to keep trying to help ourselves, and I'm very sorry things are so hard. Posting here was a good thing. I will pray for you, and I wish you many blessings.