Am I the only one?

[Anxious0930]

Ok y’all, I’ve never done this before and I’m not sure what I’m doing this is my first post and my first time ever seeking help, but I can’t do this alone anymore. I’m tired all the time, I want to be happy, I want to have energy, and not stress over things that doesn’t matter. But I don’t know how to turn my brain off from over thinking everything or how to make myself want to get out of bed. I don’t care to be around anyone and I feel like no one around me understands how I can feel like this and still not know my own problem. I feel suicidal at times because I feel like my brain is always in a fog, my anxiety attacks are getting worse and that makes all my muscles hurt and makes me feel exhausted. I have to figure out how to feel better. I don’t want to leave the house, crowds make me nervous, I forget everything and simple daily task kick my butt. Does anyone else feel like this?

[Agora1]

Hi Anxious0930, I'm proud of you that you took the first step forward in helping yourself.

Everyone on this site has these feelings in one form or another. Since the doctor told you that you have a chemical imbalance, have you been put on any medication?

This is the start of correcting what you are feeling. Another thing is therapy can be very beneficial along with meds.

This is a safe supportive site that you've come to. You will no longer feel alone. I'd like to

Welcome you to an understanding and caring group. xx

[Anxious0930 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much, I just feel like I’m losing my mind the doctor is still going through meds to help with the chemical imbalance, anxiety, depression, and PTSD and she had referred me to a therapist and I got nervous and I didn’t go... 😔 I know that’s on me and it wasn’t right but my anxiety was so high I couldn’t imagine walking in and just laying all this on someone and be like ok now you think I’m crazy but can you fix me? Today is the first time I’ve (openly) ever talked about this besides with my doctor.

[Agora1 in reply to Anxious0930]

Anxious, I'm glad to hear your doctor is working on your medications for chemical imbalance. That is a positive step. Takes a little time to get the right med and dose.

The therapist is going to be very important in getting you back on the right path.

Medication alone won't do it. You need guidance right now. Believe me there isn't

anything that a therapist hasn't heard. They are there to help you. They do not judge.

The first time is the hardest if you've never done this before. But like everything else

in life, once we try something new and take that first step, all falls into place.

Look it in how you are already talking with me

We are here for you as well. We are not doctors but are just like you with issues

we willingly share with each other. We can learn through other's experiences.

I'm glad you are here. xx

[Anxious0930 in reply to Agora1]

I’m going to go to the therapist talking here was hard but I did it and thank you Agora for taking the time to read my post and talk to me. I’m so glad I came across this page. Now I don’t feel near as alone as I did or as (crazy) because I know others are going through the same thing as me. 🙂

[Jacobscedars]

Hi, I’m sorry to hear of the situation you find yourself in. Well done for putting your feelings out to people - I think that’s the first step in helping yourself - telling people how you feel.

I too have a very noisy brain that can’t simply go into neutral gear. It’s overwellming to be honest.

I find just getting some quiet time helps and can revitalise oneself.

Take care

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Don’t over think. It was my first time two days ago. Met some great people. Finding help is key. And sharing happy positive thoughts. One thing at a time. Don’t overwhelm yourself with negativity. We all struggle. But you have to find some kind of help. It works

[PartsWork]

Hello! I've had similar feelings of anxiety ever since the pandemic began. Since then, I started to work with a therapist and discovered a lot about myself. One of the main reason of the overwhelming anxiety now was actually because of a rough childhood/PTSD experiences from the past. Honestly, I never thought that my childhood was rough, and talked myself into believing that it was just a process that many people went through, it was just life. It is actually a good thing as it was a way that I was protecting myself from more pain. So all these years I wasn't aware of how anxious I am, or the depression/anxiety faded in your terms, until this year when the pandemic occurred. From the terms of my therapist, this is actually life reminding you that there are things that need to be resolved. There are lessons that needs to be learnt, and now is the time to do so. Let's see this as an opportunity to learn the lessons in life, and it came at this time because life believes that we are now ready. There would be no way for us to overcome our traumatic experiences back when we were teenagers, but now we are much more equipped with resources and experiences that could help us. Just meds alone would not help in this sense, because if the meds could fix the problem immediately, there would be nothing for us to learn from. You might be surprised if you could find a therapist that works with EMDR to help resolve traumatic experiences. There are definitely many people feeling or have felt the same way, and there are also many people who went past this, just like other difficulties in life. Things have already started to get better when you chose to talk about your experience here