I'm new here...and I've been anxious for the last week.
I am sabotaging my life by creating these scenarios. I'm creating the worse possible thing that could happen.
I worry one day, someone from my past will use inappropriate photos of me and ruin my career. The thing is, deep down I keep denying that they have good morals. I'm just not so sure since I lost my respect for them since they tried to change me and make me into what they wanted. But I don't trust them and I worry if it'll backfire.
I'm scared and I don't know why. I thought I got over this fear but I don't know why it haunts me. I don't want to feel shame, I just want to yell and scream. I don't want to be crying, I want to fight and even take back.
My anxiety is killing me. My sleeping patterns are ruining me. What should I do? How can I stop making these fake scenarios that haven't even happened?
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Im sorry you are going through this. Also, im sorry to inform you that this is probably going to take quite a long time to get over. I'd definitely consider seeing a therapist if you don't already, they can help you cope with your overthinking and offer a more sane take on this. Maybe ask yourself, why would they do it, if they even have any rational reasons to attempt to ruin your life. I know its hard to think rationally rn, but anxiety is not constant. They most likely don't. People don't usually ruin each others lives just because someone isn't what they want them to be. They are more likely to find someone else who is or who is willing to be that person. Its understandable that you are worried it will backfire, it sounds like you had to deal with someone toxic, possibly narcissistic. However my experience with narcissists is that they usually just talk behind your back and move on, but they don't tend to do anything "visible".
I really think I am worrying over nothing. I hope to be able to afford a therapist or once COVID is over, I want to do group therapy in-person. I know you're right, everything you're saying is rational and it really is reassuring me. So thank you.
You are welcome )) good idea to attend group sessions, but covid is probably going to be around for a couple more months, maybe check if there are any online group sessions via video calls or a therapist who does online sessions, otherwise you might have to wait quite a long time to get help and postponing this is never a good idea, since you never know what it might turn into. Especially when we are forced to stay at home most of the time, which is something that makes everyone prone to overthinking. I don't want to freak you out, just please don't wait, its not going to help anything.
It is better in person, I hated my on-phone sessions, but its at least something when you don't have another option. Some help is still better than no help at all.
Just to ket you know we are all here for you. If these pictures are taken in the privacy of a home and they post without your consent it is illegal. There are actions you can take to charge them. I completely understand the fear. Some people don't care about anyone but themselves. Just remember that you have power..others don't have power over you. I battle that fight in my head every day.
Hi that is a really good explanation of what I've been doing also . fake scenarios , I couldn't put it Into words, i am constantly imagining the very worst to, of what might happen, it is all made up in my mind , I go through hundreds of scenarios that could happen, so I'm traumatised as if I've been through the actual event that's completely fictitious . It wont stop .
It’s so difficult to stop overthinking. It just never stops even when I know it’s happening. Sometimes when I try to distract myself, I feel like I’m running away from the deep seeded issue.
Yes I know what you mean. Its interesting that you mention running away from an issue, its like my head is constantly overthinking about a certain subject that I cant really face , so it's like its keeps pecking at me but I won't acknowledge the actual truth. Thanks for your post
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