The voice in my head won't stop

[Jennblank7734]

I keep thinking about this. It's being a problem now. I have thoughts like I'm going to be told to go away or stop posting so much. I don't think I'll get a message asking me to leave, more like being made aware that people are tired of it. I know this won't happen but I'm starting to have anxiety to come here. I'm not sure why I experience this. Is it paranoia? I have the same problem with feeling like someone doesn't like me. Not strangers but people I know. All I know how to do about it is tell the person how I feel. It's very embarrassing.

I really need a place like this right now. I don't want to lose the support I've found. It's all I have.

I'm trying to explain how I'm feeling. I thought that it would be great if anyone knows what or why I'm experiencing these thoughts so I know what to look for.

I know I post a lot. It bothers me. You guys really are all that I have right now. I truly appreciate the help and having someone to talk to. Thank you.

[Danzdanz123]

Pop up to me slide in my dms I would rant on here all day if I could currently experiencing intense anxiety and panic attacks

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I don't think you post too much. I haven't been on much but, I experience that too. I also get nervous. It's ok though. This is a safe place, but we're all strangers so I get it. You're ok! 🙌

[mizzou7016]

Just work on you. I've learned a long time ago that people are going to think what they want to think about me...regardless of what the truth is....so just keep being yourself and doing what feels good to you. The right people, the people who matter will stick around and support you

[Weatherwoman in reply to mizzou7016]

Oh, such good advice. So True -- You can't please everyone, and not everyone will like you. While I know this to be true, it still bothers me when some people (in my family, not my friends) think things about me that are Not true. I have to remind myself that's it's THEIR take on Their truth, not THE truth.

[mizzou7016 in reply to Weatherwoman]

It took me a long time to realize this. It is something I still struggle with...It's like at work....I always feel like I need to prove myself to others during specific situations...ony person I need to prove anything to is me....integrity is a fickle demon

[Weatherwoman in reply to mizzou7016]

SO True. "Only person I need to prove anything to is me." Need to keep reminding myself that!

[mizzou7016 in reply to Weatherwoman]

It is also ok to say hey.....this isn't right. it's okay to say I won't tolerate disrespect....from anyone....

[Weatherwoman in reply to mizzou7016]

YES! Of course, I need to speak up more, and am trying.

[CLB1125]

I don’t think you post too much or anything like that. That’s why we are here I think is so we have a safe place to talk about hard with people who understand. Keep on keeping on!!

[hypercat54]

Oh bless you darling. NO you are not posting too much so take that thought right out of your head now - ok done it? Good.

The site is here for all of us who need support and encouragement so use it as often as you need to.

You might get more responses though if you lock your post to this community, otherwise the post and all the replies will go viral and can even appear on social media.

Keep on posting and we are listening. xx

[MaggieSylvie]

Dear Jennblank, you have only just arrived on this site. How could you possibly be on here, writing too much? You are welcome to write as much as you want to and I can relate to what you say about it being a similar feeling to worrying that someone doesn't like you. Gosh, and I bet I'm not the only one. That's why we're all here for you and each other. No-one's going to ask you to leave. You'd have to say something shocking🤣🤣

[Jennblank7734]

Do anyone also deal with this? I'm not sure how to find out what it's from or why

[designguy]

Good for you for expressing how you feel and I don't think at all that you are posting too much here, that is one of the things that this site is here for so please post away. I think what you are experiencing is the vulnerability that you feel and that a lot of us here feel when opening ourselves up to others.

My fear of being vulnerable and not being able to trust others, even some family members stems from my growing up in an emotionally repressive abusive home environment and being bullied in school so I developed social anxiety. I was also punished and shamed for trying to stand up for myself or showing any signs of being proud of myself so I had low-self-worth which can feed into the fear of vulnerability. Maybe some of this fits for you. So I hope you will continue to post and benefit from the community here.

[Jennblank7734]

Thank you so much! I will check that out asap.