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I can’t stop negative scenarios in my head

Hello, it’s my first time posting. Ive been suffering from anxiety and depression for years but it’s been extra bad lately. I’m constantly and always angry for no reason, I’m always looking for confrontation, and no matter what I do I’m extremely anxious, I also have many OCD like tendencies. All of this I hide most of the day, so work is getting more and more difficult to get through. I’ve been on meds before but never really found anything that has helped long term. I might try counseling again but I have no money so I was hoping his would help.

My biggest confusion is a new issue I’ve been experiencing. My mind creates scenarios where I am confronting someone that made me mad, or intense, sometimes unrealistic, stories of getting in a car accident or being a victim in the middle of a terrorist attack. It’s as if my anger creates a release in my mind in form of a story. I convince myself this stuff actually happens without realizing it. Sometimes I think I am crazy.

Has anyone else experienced not being able to stop these negative intense scenarios from playing in their head?

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Sosa2017 so I've been like that for a while now like in the other post you replied too I'm diagnosed with depression, anxiety,& bipolar but I looked up also Borderline Personality disorders and there a lot that I match too I would suggest you also look it up so that maybe you talk that with your dr. When you have more then one issue most of the time BPD gets missed as a diagnosis I've done an it if research on it so while we are taking meds for other issues the BPD isn't getting treated m. This will be a discussion with my psychiatrist tomorrow as for I think I may also have BPD and we missed this diagnosis. Good luck !

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I make scenarios every single day. If I'm driving somewhere I make one of how I can die and how it's going to feel. I make scenarios about confronting people as well. And also of being the victim in attacks.

I do it everyday. But what I found helpful is to stop myself as soon as I realize I'm doing it.

Try focusing on sounds around you or try rubbing your fingers together and just focus on the touch. Breath in and out and focus on the air coming in and out. I red that in a book "the power of now" try reading it. It actually talks a lot about this. Hoping you get some relief from this.

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Thanks, I need to get an actual psychiatrist. My general doctor has given me anti depression pills before but he can’t do much beyond that. I’m just terrible with talking to people about my issues and feelings, another reason why I thought this chat group would help. But I’ll be looking into that soon, thanks again

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I know your pain I have my good days and my bad days I have a lot of the same issues with crazy thoughts and it's actually a form of OCD called intrusive thoughts which sounds a lot like what your experiencing. I also suffer from anxiety attacks I thought they were heart attacks in the beginning because of the physical symptoms I was always having (heart pounding, dizzy, impending doom feeling, breathing difficulty) but after years of having them and talking to doctors and therapists I realize now when I have them they are just anxiety attacks but they can be very scary for sure if you don't know what it is in the beginning. I hate taking RX meds too so it's a double edge sword, I feel like I trade one problem for another when I take the pills the doctors give me and all the side effects that come with them. To be honest I have been using medical marijuana for the last few years and I feel it really helps me and doesn't have near as many bad side effects. I know it might sound crazy but look into it and try a sativa strain it really helps with mood, anxiety and depression. But use a low does if you never tried it before

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One-love Thanks for the info about intrusive thoughts, I might have a name for it now and that helps so much. I get anxiety attacks too but I’m lucky it’s not too often.

Honestly I use marijuana too for it. I wasn’t going to promote it but I agree and will say it’s the only thing that has helped. It has such a bad stigma but if used correctly it’s great for me.

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Yes intrusive thoughts which is a form of OCD sucks big time so I feel your pain. It comes and goes but you'll know it when it happens because the thoughts you get will make you feel very uncomfortable and can be very scary thoughts sometimes and you may question your self if your crazy or not but it's a real thing and once you realize it's just a form of OCD and that a lot of other people have it, you don't feel so alone and you know your not going crazy, OCD is also another form of anxiety from what I have been told by therapists as well as PTSD. I agree 100% medical cannabis is a great help for my symptoms I feel like it does just as good of job as the RX drugs but without all the crazy side effects. But if I was you I would still talk to a therapist so that way you can be diagnosed and treated with cognitive therapy because that is a very effective treatment for intrusive thoughts . Message me anytime

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Hello, I have had Anxiety for 13 years. Yes, I have something similar, but not the same... I had a bad fear of death as a child, it still haunts me today, but when you have had anxiety for so long, you tend to know your trigger points, and ways to get around/put of attacks, or say, visuals? Well I have negative thoughts like, let's say I have a heart palpation from anxiety, after just 1 I think all day and night if my heart is going to stop. Realistically, it's not going to. I know this may not be much help, but what I fo now is place positive thoughts before negative can arrive, this takes time for you to adjust, at least your brain. (And sorry if there are any typos) I'm typing very fast. I hope I could help you out just a little really try the thought process, if not, get a peir! I have one, he's a great guy, helps me in dark times. We will get through this!

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Hello,

I just went onto Google to see if anyone experiences negative scenarios in their head like I do. I do JUST what you do: imagine a scenario where someone makes me mad, and I tell them off.

I'm 46 years old and have put in LOTS of time into examining myself, and below are 4 conclusions I've drawn:

1. FOOD IS HUGE.

2. YOUR BREATH AFFECTS YOUR BRAIN.

3. THIS IS CONNECTED TO YOUR PAST.

4. HABITS ARE HARD TO BREAK.

FOOD IS HUGE - I decided to do Mark Hyman's 10-Day Detox a few years ago to see if there were any foods that affected my moods and have realized that, for me, white sugar affects my brain. (I don't know if it's white sugar combined with white flour, but it may be.) It wasn't until I cleaned my body out that I was able to see the effects of eating certain foods. Eating sugar creates this negative whirlwind in my head that I get very caught up in. I was doing pretty well lately, and then a week ago, I totally splurged on a bunch of "bad" (but SO tasty!) food. Now I'm stuck in the cycle of my mind again and have to wait it out. Mark Hyman is the functional medicine doctor who inspired me to explore this topic. I learned about him from an On Being podcast he was on. A woman called in to tout the benefits of eating clean by telling the panel that her compulsion to work out 3-4 hours a day went away when she changed her diet. I was floored.

YOUR BREATH AFFECTS YOUR BRAIN - I've been doing kundalini yoga breathwork almost every day since the beginning of lent. I do "cat/cow" 4 minutes a day and am seeing noticeable changes in my demeanor. I don't get bothered by things that have bothered me in the past. I have this new calm about me, and I know it's from the breathwork. I read about this in the book Inspired Living by Guru Jagat. (By the way, in my experience, this doesn't happen over night. It was not until a month in that I started noticing very subtle changes.)

THIS IS CONNECTED TO YOUR PAST - I do believe the feelings behind these thoughts aren't random. That is what you need to key into. For me, I realized it was about my mom who is always telling me what to do because the scenarios I play out in my head are usually about someone telling me what to do and me feeling frustrated with that.....just like I've discovered that I have these buried feelings of frustration toward my mom. Find out what's buried in you! I believe the theme of your thoughts is just you trying to process something. It's as if that "something" is trying to get your attention and won't let go until you acknowledge it.

HABITS ARE HARD TO BREAK - When you think a thought, there are numerous chemical reactions that happen in your body. When you keep thinking the thought, your body starts to memorize those chemical reactions and starts supporting you in a way where the chemical reactions start creating the thoughts! It's a cycle that starts moving around inside you without you having to make much effort. When you try to stop this inertia, your physical body does everything it can to not change because it's set up to "support" you by staying the same.....by keeping the status quo. (It's like your body has simply taken an instruction from you and has taken it VERY seriously and obediently.) So, you trying to change without seeing results is normal. Check out Joe Dispenza's book, Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself, Google his name and watch his videos. (He was also in the movie What the Bleep Do We Know?)

I hope this helps!!!

Jennifer

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