Hello, it’s my first time posting. Ive been suffering from anxiety and depression for years but it’s been extra bad lately. I’m constantly and always angry for no reason, I’m always looking for confrontation, and no matter what I do I’m extremely anxious, I also have many OCD like tendencies. All of this I hide most of the day, so work is getting more and more difficult to get through. I’ve been on meds before but never really found anything that has helped long term. I might try counseling again but I have no money so I was hoping his would help.
My biggest confusion is a new issue I’ve been experiencing. My mind creates scenarios where I am confronting someone that made me mad, or intense, sometimes unrealistic, stories of getting in a car accident or being a victim in the middle of a terrorist attack. It’s as if my anger creates a release in my mind in form of a story. I convince myself this stuff actually happens without realizing it. Sometimes I think I am crazy.
Has anyone else experienced not being able to stop these negative intense scenarios from playing in their head?