Need friends .

[EM44]

Hi everyone I’m new here and yes I suffer from anxiety and depression for several years now . Came across this app and was hoping to meet some people here since I have no friends at all . I’m married have a son but I have no friends. I do work and I have co-workers who I say hi and bye to but that’s all . It’s hard to find friends when you suffer from anxiety and depression bc llano people who don’t have this have a hard time understanding that it’s ( easier said then done) to cheer up . I wish I was normal , my mother passed away about a year and half ago and that certainly didn’t help with my anxiety it just got worst and worst . I have A lot of guilt with certain things that I did in my past which is causing me about 90% of my anxiety . There is no taking it back and I regret it all . Sometimes I think God punished me by having my mother fall ill and die. I was raised catholic my whole life but I am no longer any religion . I’m trying to just be more spiritual I just don’t know how . Sometimes I wish I just had 1 friend that I could vent to or even just have a normal conversation with to get me out of my head for a few minutes, honestly sometimes that’s all i need. Coming to work is so hard especially days like these when anxiety is kicking my ass I can actually feel my nerves just shaking inside and I start to get panic attacks ( yes I have those too) smh. I’m just always in a bad and sad mood and I can tell it affects my family , yes I have a therapist who I speak to once a week but sometimes just knowing that I’m paying her to listen to me makes me feel really low she’s only listening to me bc I pay her . I live In New York City ( City that never sleeps) yet I can’t find 1 friend who can relate with me judgement free. I thought I give this a shot.

[Aspetta]

Welcome. Do you have an Employee assistance program? I lost both my parent in two years. Employee assistance helped me. You can decide to talk one on one or in a group. It was free and I enjoyed the one on one with my councilor.

[EM44 in reply to Aspetta]

Yeah I believe we do maybe I’ll. Heck it out .

[ImLost3]

Hi it’s ok your not alone. We’re all here to help bring each other up. I have this quote about Forgiveness. “Forgiveness doesn’t change the future it clears up the past.” I have this YouTube video about God forgive you of things in the past and hope you check it out. It has helped me deal with my depression and move forward in a right direction .

youtu.be/1NAX_z3tdZk(Not working as expected?)

[EM44 in reply to ImLost3]

Thank you for your response I will check it out . Hopefully I can help me

[ImLost3 in reply to EM44]

I hope it does the YouTube channel AboveInspiration has a lot of good videos hope u like.

[PositivePD]

Welcome! I am new as well.

I totally understand you anxiety!

[EM44 in reply to PositivePD]

Wow I saw the video it is very good I subscribed to it , It made me feel really calm , I liked how he preached very direct and positive thank u again . And thank u for understand

[ryelee]

I have had many therapists over a long stretch of years. Yes they need to get paid to do their job. But everyone who works needs to get paid. If you get the vibes that the person is only interested in money, seek another therapist. I am sure you can find a caring person who views getting paid as a way of being able to help others in rough times. Don't assume everyone is watching the clock. However I have switched therapists when I didn't feel they were really interested in helping me. Use you intuition to find someone you like and trust. It may take several tries, but it can be done.