Need a friend.

[JustLost]

So this week i sadly lost my little sister to renal failure at the age of 27. Yesterday was her birthday, she would have been 28. I don't feel sad, happy, angry, or anything, i have emotional numbness. The funeral is going to be on feb 3rd, and its going to be really hard. I feel as though i can't speak openly to family or friends about how i feel. Would love a long term online friend, nothing sketchy, just someone to offer support, and who i could support too. I suffer from adhd, ptsd, personality dissorder, anxiety and depression. Im 30 y.o from north east england, but happy to speak to anyone. Thanks.

[JustLost]

Thankyou! That sounds good. I think once the funeral has taken place, ill find things easier, and start to heal

[Hidden]

Hey there..

We are here for u and you know us, we are very good with listening and support. Was ur sister staying with u? Did she have children? I am not trying to be noisy it just that I can relate with losing a sibling. It is so hard and it takes long to heal. The wound will heal but the scar will never go away. There are days whe u will just think about her and u will wish u were dead, not because of problems but just to be with her where she is. This is normal. I also lost my younger brother two years ago. It is hard when I miss him I just want to go and be with him. I kick myself when I think like that but it is normal to feel like that. It will get better though with time, u know what they say about time, it heals all wound....

[JustLost in reply to Hidden]

Sorry to hear about your loss too! My sister lived with my mum, but we have always been very close. She was disabled from birth, and been on dialysis for 3 years, so it didnt exactly come as a shock, but nothing vould have prepared me. She didn't have any children no.

[Hidden in reply to JustLost]

Even when we are prepared, it always shock. But do u have other siblings?

[JustLost in reply to Hidden]

I have 1 other sister yeah, she's 26, im the oldest

[Hidden in reply to JustLost]

Still, It won't take the place of ur other sister but it helps to have someone who knew her... We are there as well know that...

[kenster1]

hi just lost sorry to hear about your dearest sister god bless you all.we have a forum here called bereavement care and share its a smallish community but very supportive and it could be of added support to you.take care.

[JustLost in reply to kenster1]

Thanks, ill give that a look

[FearIsALiar]

I’m sorry for your loss . I’d love to be friends 💕

[JustLost in reply to FearIsALiar]

Thanks! Very Appriciated. =] everyone here is so kind

[FearIsALiar in reply to JustLost]

😊😊😊😊

[MeandMyPups]

Dear JustLost, you are in midst of probably the hardest thing ever and I'm sorry you are hurting. But because you are hurting I think you loved each other. You will always have that love. Always. One day you will look at photos of her and smile because she was part of your life and not cry because you are separated. I know it feels impossible but the grief will ease over time. I lost my mom 3 years ago. The world is no longer bleak but I still miss her very much. Find someone to hug you. Sending you love from across the pond.❤️

[JustLost in reply to MeandMyPups]

Thankyou they were lovely words!! Ill always be thankfull for the time we had together! =] but it's just so unfair that she had to be taken so soon

[MeandMyPups]

I am here. Send a note if you feel the urge.

[JW621]

I’m truly sorry for your loss. Condolences to you and your family