Doesn't seem like I'm ever going to work again

I haven't worked in years. I can't live like this anymore. I'd rather die than be a homeless person. Soon I will be 50. I've accomplished not much of anything, I just get doors slammed in my face. I don't even have a computer or a car anymore. I try to be social, but a lot of people are just cold and rude and mean and I don't know why I even bother saying hello to anyone. My future looks scary. Some people have money like retirement funds, I'm surviving on Mac and cheese and food stamps. What am I doing anymore? Am I going to become one of these beggars you see with a Will work for Food sign on me? When I was younger I thought I would have my shit together by now. I have not much of anything. No husband or children or money or job. Just feel shortchanged. Now I'm single again. I have nothing to offer anyone. I don't want to exist. I only exist so psychiatrists can make money off of me to go on their fancy vacations. I'm on a permanent vacation. No one cares when your poor. You just get your ass kicked around.

[Sunflowerxxxxxx]

Have you thought about volunteering ? It would get you out, you would meet people, learn new skills or utilise ones you have, and it may lead to work

[Dolphin14]

You have so much to offer. Look at the work you have done here so far. You have supported many people with your words.

You are still young. There is something out there for you. Don't look for the big $. It won't bring you happiness. A simple life can be the most fulfilling life depending on who you surround yourself with.

You know what my dream job is? Walking dogs. Haha That would bring me such joy.

It's hard for us to see our own worth. I struggle with that also.

You will get there.

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Waking doggies!!

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hidden]

Yes!! 🐾🐾 ❤️❤️

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You’re never alone with a dog by your side

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hidden]

So true. Unconditional love.

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At this point, $$$$ would make me very happy. Scraping by on a government handout is rougher than people know. I have so much trouble even just with basic minimum wage jobs because dealing with some people shoots my anxiety through the roof. Trying to placate a difficult customer or dealing with coworkers who like to gossip or manipulate you into doing work for them too, this is what goes on. I always get asked do you work well with others. The answer I'm supposed to give is of course, yes I do. I'm a team player, blah, blah, blah. The truth? There's a lot of people I just don't want to be around. I wish I could have a career writing books or articles, maybe starting a blog. Just being able to work on my own. Most jobs you have to work with people on some level. And who's reading books anymore??? Everyone's reading online. I have had jobs in the past but I never last very long at them.

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Hiya👋👋 still here......

I like dolphin14’s idea of walking dogs or volunteering at a local shelter.

Those shelter dogs are us....the ones that might need work.

The ones with scars and little hope.

Plus, they are almost always def in a worse situation than you.

May bring some self worth🙏

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It’s scary. Worrying about our future and looking back to our past.

Not sure where your location is. Do you have unemployment offices there ?

Have you thought about what you would like to do? Like a dream?

I get that you feel 50. And I’m a tell you I know some pretty hot 50 yrs olds lol woooo baby Haah. Girls and men. They exercise.

What were you doing in your past?

Churches don’t help give food out there ?

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Oh, the most depressing place you can ever have to go to is going to a food bank. Some of the food you get is usually the foods at the store that no one else is buying and is past the expiration date. At this point I'd rather survive on ramen noodles than go to a food bank. I don't know where my life is heading anymore. Stuff I have tried to do did not work out. I've felt lost for a long time. And exercise? I walk a lot because I have to. Can't really afford to go to a gym, and junk food is cheaper in some ways than healthier food. Reality 101.