So- 2 months ago, I said, āIt can only go up from here!ā Because I thought I had hit rock bottom.
Turns out, I was wrong. Iāve definitely hit it now. 3 weeks ago, I changed anti depressants. No change, and got worse with PTSD... I have recently within the past 3 weeks had a few flashbacks... and then also some others things have triggered it tremendously. All I did was panic, cry and dissociate, all day long. Iāve been calling crisis lines everyday/seeing crisis workers the past week and a half... I barley ate anything in the past 3 weeks. Iāve lost weight. I could not sleep either. In 7 nights I got 22-24 hours of sleep. I was just too scared to do anything.
Both me and my therapist had to talk to my psychiatrist because I couldnāt think of form sentences correctly. Nothing could calm me.
My psychiatrist put me on Olanzapine, due to my psychosis state from my PTSD. He said Iāll just take it till things settle down, then I stop taking the medication.
I can gladly say, last night, I slept 9 hours!! I actually slept!! Iām calm, and I can think and talk again.
I had no idea how not eating and not sleeping while having a severePTSD episodes whatever this is called, has been the craziest Iāve ever felt. Itās been chaos. But so much weight lifted of my shoulders with this medication.