Just want to go home

[ScarlettOwl]

I have been staying with my mom for a week. I am trying to give myself some time to work through some stuff before returning to my apartment with my boyfriend. I want to stay away from the apartment for ideally 3 weeks. Everyday it gets harder not being home even though I know things won't be much better there. I just want to start fixing things but I dont want to rush them and end up leaving again. I am struggling making it through one day at a time knowing what I will have to come home to. He is so hurt and will barely talk to me while we have some time apart. He said he would wait for my and that he wasn't going anywhere. That things would be difficult when. I come back and I am really going to have to work. I don't want to half ass (for lack of better words) this. He is the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. The one who has stood by me even at my worst. I dont like seeing him this way or having him be this cold. I know what I have to do, it just sucks.

[brokenlight]

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