Home is a mayhem. Didn't have power to call the broker back. Just wanted to go home to rest but mom's insane (ik please don't tell me)

[Against_the_current]

I decided to stay at my university because my mother is the number one source of panic. However, it is not very good in uni city either, because I am in a cramped apartment. The realtor has been calling me all day, but I didn't have the strength to answer him. Brokers are the number two source of panic. I didn't have the strength to pick him up. I panicked until late yesterday, today I was traveling home. I paid the rent and said to myself "my things will be safe while I rest in home. I'll keep this place for while I study on the weekends and come back during the week." However, neither place is good for me. I hate that I told the realtor, but I didn't have the energy to deal with it and I didn't have time to I'm moving. I just wanted to go to Stara Zagora and have a rest. Tomorrow is my father's birthday and my mother is calling me and my sister to go to their place. First of all, he didn't invite us, secondly, he has a new family and she is certainly making the malice of us. I can't stand it. I can't. I can't even find a place to live, just seeing a broker makes me sick and shaking. However, my hopes of resting at home were dashed. I told her I was tired, she told me she was more tired. Panic all night. I can't deal with her craziness either (please don't tell me she's toxic and/or suffering - I know it and I want to scream, please). I can't find a place to recover in this state. I came back with the idea that I would rest, and a madhouse at that. I was going to change my job, I hate people, I don't have enough money. That my sister is also at school and yells to write and go to bed, she hangs out. I can't recover enough to get out of this hell and the other hell. I hope it's just stress and I'm overexposing my mom's words.

[SoporRose]

I’m so sorry that you can’t find some relief anywhere. I don’t know what else to say.

[1947treble]

It's a good thing you're distancing yourself from the toxicity. I am sorry about your living situation. Just keep doing what's right for you and eventually you will find satisfaction. I prayed for your situation

[SoporRose]

AtC,

We haven't heard from you in a few days. I hope that means things are going better? Please drop a post when you have a chance so we know how you're doing.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

I'm not better. I'm just overwhelmed. Tried to rest but had therapy and my therapist is a bitch. And she gave me no advice for going back to university

[SoporRose]

I am sorry that you're not better. Most therapists won't give direct advice like that — that's the job of a university advisor — but any decent therapist should help you figure out what it is YOU want to do.