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[wileykitt]

Some times I look at myself, and my life and wonder how did I get here. I feel like such a disappointment to everyone. Sometimes I can be so motivated and want to get things done. Then in a blink of an eye it all goes away. I look at myself and see a horrible person. Then for no reason the anxiety sets in. Its hard to think, or to concentrate. I have like 50 things going on in my head and can't seem to focus on one of them. What makes it worse is that I cannot talk to anyone about how I feel because I know I will be judged. Even writing this now I have so many random thoughts I want to get out. Like how do explain what's wrong when you feel like everything is wrong??

[IgorM91]

I think the same thing about myself and my life too. Especially since 2019 is ten years after I graduated high school and I have achieved nothing in life and my life has only gotten worse since my diagnosis of depression and other mental illnesses. My therapists in the past and my current one now all say I need a support group but having any friends in general is so difficult because of my mental illnesses. Even my family doesn’t understand they just look down on me. I have found breathing slowing in through the nose and out my mouth and focusing on the breath helps with my anxiety. I would try looking for many other techniques for anxiety reduction and try them to see what works for you. Remember you’re not alone.

[wileykitt in reply to IgorM91]

Thanks, I will try that. I know how you feel. Its been hard for me to make and keep friends as well. Sometimes I wish there was a way just to give them a glimpse of what you're feeling. Then I think people would understand. If you ever need to vent I am here.

[IgorM91 in reply to wileykitt]

Thank you

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Have you tried journaling? I found that having a bullet journal is so cool! Maybe it’s something you should look into you’re definitely not alone ! you’re not a horrible person ❤️

[wileykitt in reply to Hidden]

I use to do that in high school. I stopped when someone found my journal and read it. Maybe I can try again.