I might as well end it all nobody cares

[Meyer_Gdmnx]

My family don’t ever listen to my concerns regarding lockdown they frequently swap houses. I often go hungry due to there not being any food in the house. Or at least anything that I can have. As I have ocd I’m a very picky eater. My own mother even breaks rules when I explicitly ask her not too. She went and did a shop for me today. Which was very nice of her but I had sent the money to my brother for that shop that he never went on. And they both met and went on this shop buying things and brands I don’t even like. From a shop I never go to so you can imagine how this has affected me and my ocd I’m really on the edge here guys please help calm me I’ve had barely anything to eat today.

[hypercat54]

Well the answer seems to do your own shopping or at least go with your mother. Are you able to do that?

[Meyer_Gdmnx in reply to hypercat54]

Hi hypercat I hope you’re keeping safe and well. Well she doesn’t live in the same house as me which is one of the reasons I got so upset when my brother went shopping with her. I’m just tired of feeling stressed and in danger because of the actions of others. I would go shopping myself but my brother works at a local supermarket so it’s easier than me standing in a que for a while. I’m just sick and tired of being sick and tired

[hypercat54 in reply to Meyer_Gdmnx]

It might be easier but is the price worth it? If others have to take care of you then there is always a price to pay. You have to decide which is the better course for you. No one ever gets 100% of what they and has to do trade offs. It's called independence.

I am in my 60's with mild/moderate lung disease, and need a stick to walk. I am treated exactly the same as a young fit person and have to queue up too. Many shops I can't so have to go at quieter times or use a different shop. Or do without. It's far from easy but if I want to eat I have no choice. x

[L1994]

I so understand what you are saying. My family ain't taking this lockdown as seriously as I am and same my nanna is going to my mums house and going shopping all the time. Then my brother is still working and I like everything tk be wiped down that comes in the house and also I got to a point where I couldn't have people touch mine or my little girls food or prepare our food. I would freak out. I even asked my nanna what she had wiped my parcel with afyer it coming through the post and she was telling me she had wiped it and found out she didnt anti bacterial ise it but used a tea towel and put the tea towel on the side. I nearly had a fit. J feel like i don't want to be like this because j get frustrated all the time and they don't listen to my concerns over this virus. I know my family try to do me well when maybe getting something out of the fridge for me but I do tell them not to as I can't touch it for a couple of hours then. 😬

[Want2BHappy3]

How old are You? You say you’re picky and are upset that you’re brother didn’t do your shopping, are you handicapped? Family and friends are the First to abandon You. If you’re Not handicapped, then you need to make the time to do things for yourself.

[KittenMittens22]

I know how you feel. When I used to live with my parents and suffering terribly from agoraphobia, I couldn’t go anywhere for myself and would go hungry because they would not help me get something to eat. I too had a hard time eating things and only had a few items I could eat well. I had lost weight down to 86 pounds (my normal weight is about 115 pounds). I would get so upset and hurt when I would ask one of them to go get me something to eat and they would say no they are too tired or why don’t you go yourself. I felt like they didn’t care. I mean if your child can barely eat and then feel like they can eat something, you think they would be glad to get something.

It still truly hurts me to the core when I think about those times. I felt so alone when I needed my family’s help the most. I just think many people are just selfish and also don’t understand mental illness.

[gutierrezk67]

I'm so sorry. My heart goes out to you. As I am a mom of 4 all over the age of 18 I could not imagine not being with my kids. This quarantine has been harder on me, feeling depressed, sad missing my kids being around. I will pray for you that things will change and that your family get closer. Reach out anytime.