I thought this site would help me, but it really not.
I went to a therapy to talk and the therapy was right I don't any dream, It made realize that I'm pathetic. I wonder why the people I know call me so many names, why to put me down, why say no women will ever love you, you deserve nothing, and much more. They are right. I have no purpose, worthless human being, I don't love myself, I don't care about self, I don't even care about my life. I'm beyond broken, I will always be broken. I'm okay with that.
I grow up poor, I been abandoned, I'm not attractive, I been abused, I lack faith and hope, I Stop believing, God punishment, pain, emptiness, worthless human being, unlovable, lack confidence, much more.
When people have faith and hope, friends, a family that cares about you, support system and much more. It gets them through the toughest time of the life. That what makes you human.
All can do is keep moving.