Anxiety Spiraling

[lookingforthestars]

hey, i suffer from chronic depression and anxiety and my anxiety has been at bay for quite sometime now but now its back and sometimes i tend to forget how to breathe and stay calm like my therapist told me. Iḿ 16 years old and i am in my Sophmore year and i hate being at my current school, i love the people i just dont like the school environment, ever since the government closed down schools ive been fine working from home but now the very thought of going back to that school is making me very anxious. Ive been meaning to ask my mother if i could change schools but she always brings up the excuse about how many times ive changed schools in the past and i understand that just that right now i am not happy at this school and its affecting my grades and more importantly my mental health, right now i go to a cambridge based school and i really just want to go back to ieb. i dont want to feel this way anymore and it feels like i cant catch my breath and its hard i really want to tell my mother whats going on but i dont want her to get upset with me or shout at me i just dont know anymore. but i really cant stay at thus school.

[Ubud2021]

Yes! When your having an anxiety attack or a panic attack, you tend to forget all of your coping skills you’ve been taught. It just happens. But, as long as you keep trying, eventually, the breathing will just come naturally. I had to buy bracelets that say “breathe” and write a big poster to hang on my wall that says that as well. That way, while having these moments, you see them, and are reminded to do so.

Also, I am sorry to hear about the school situation! That must be very tough. Have you wrote down or thought about all the things included in this “environment” that you say you hate?? Writing them down, or at least being aware of exactly what these things are, guide you tremendously.

Also, after staying home for so long, you get comfortable. Yes, even though you’re going stir crazy and can’t wait to do things, but some things start to seem unmanageable and bring anxiety.

So really, challenge your thoughts as to why you hate your schools environment. Because most likely, there is a deeper issue.

[Jason_16]

Try and talk to your mom about how you feel. It does not need to be a full blown conversation about everything, but she is your mother and every parent loves their kids.

[SuZQ154]

Sorry you are feeling like this! That must be very difficult! It is hard when anxiety attacks come on! Have you considered seeing a counselor at your school? Or maybe outside of school? Having a safe place to vent, cry, and get an unbiased perspective might help? Hugs and prayers to you!!