Depression spiralling out of control.

[Binkyooo]

I can't go on like this. Just when I think I'm making some progress along comes my anxiety followed by my depression. I feel so low that I don't want to be here feeling like this. I keep thinking of ending it but I have a loving family who would be heartbroken and my animals would suffer. I can't put that responsibility on my husband. How do you stop these thoughts and get better. I'm struggling to get out of bed and I feel like there is no point to it all. Sorry for the sad post but I need to release it somewhere.

[Hidden]

Venting and expressing is critical. You can't keep those feelings inside we all have days like that even myself try to do a project do some things that make you happy what do you like to do, what are you good at?

I find through my therapist that keeping yourself busy and not focusing so much on yourself is a huge step in recovery.

Starting exercise program do yoga upload the calm app and listen to that at night, breath and love this life because there's no promise for tomorrow

I hope this helps you keep your chin up think positive and do what makes you happy

[Binkyooo in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for your lovely reply, I did see my therapist today and she has helped and given me some tools to use. I have a lack of compassion for myself (I have loads for others and animal) so I need to give myself a break and let myself heal. I will have to find a new hobby to take my mind off my anxiety. Thank for the suggestions .take care 😊

[Hidden in reply to Binkyooo]

Excellent! We all are working our tools

♥️💕♥️👍😘

[4woody in reply to Binkyooo]

I find caring for animals to be very healing. Have you tried renewing your interest in the ones you have? They are so nonjudgmental .

[Binkyooo in reply to 4woody]

Thank you woody for your reply, I have quite a few animals and caring for them keeps me going. I have just taken in to my care another foster cat that's looking for a new home. I will look after that till it finds a good one and have been doing this for 18 years. Unfortunately one of my dogs is in her last stage of cancer so we will have to have her put to sleep very soon but she has had a wonderful life and that's all we can ask. Take care.

[4woody in reply to Binkyooo]

I’m glad you have the animals... and they are fortunate to have you. How are you doing today?

[Binkyooo in reply to 4woody]

I'm feeling a bit better, my anxiety has calmed down a bit and hopefully my medication has kicked in. Thanks for asking.

[4woody in reply to Binkyooo]

good to hear...

[Hollick in reply to Binkyooo]

Thank you for sharing, I'm sorry about your dog, God bless, take care.

[Binkyooo in reply to Hollick]

Thanks hollicks, it's been 2 years since I wrote that post and thankfully my life has settled as well as my mind. I'm still dealing with the anxiety but it comes and goes but with long happy gaps inbetween the blimps. My dog had a peaceful passing at the vets having us signing to her while tickling her tummy laying on a blanket outside in the sunshine, so that was a great comfort. 6 MTHS later we got a puppy called dotty and she's. My heart 💗 so life can and has improved. Sometimes it's good to look at old posts as it makes you appreciate how far you have come. Thank you for giving me that opportunity by commenting on the post, take care.🤗

[Jackie010208]

I wish there was something I could DO to help the way we are all feeling or felt at one point. It’s scary. Just Know you are NOT ALONE. I’ve been having terrible thoughts... thoughts that just are. not. me. I have a beautiful family as well and a baby on the way actually. Just found out a couple days ago. I’m pretty sure they’d been happening a bit before but think they’ve gotten worse since. Anyways enough about me....you’re not alone my friend. To be honest. I just text my sister this morning for the first time and told her how I’m feeling. I HAD TO get it off my chest. I’ll probably find someone to talk to too. Sometimes an unbiased (chosen by you) support system...just to let it out..helps. That’s why I wound up on here... I needed to know I wasn’t alone and that there’s people for me to talk to.

[Binkyooo in reply to Jackie010208]

Hi Jackie, this is a good place just to let it all out. Sometimes you need just to vent and it felt good after I did it. There are some lovely people on here who knows how you feel so it helps. No wonder you are feeling like you are your hormones must be all over the place and it must make it far worse. Let us know if you need any support, take care of yourself.😊

[Jackie010208 in reply to Binkyooo]

Thank you! So glad to have found this community. ❤️ same to you!!