I have been on a roller coaster the last 2 months. My depression dips into real lows of not wanting to live, and then I have moments of feeling good or even too excited. Unfortunately, this hasn't been my normal pattern with depression. In the past I would struggle, get on medication, see a counselor and then pull out of the depression. This time it is not the case. I am so worn out of trying to fight this and cycling. I know I am not alone, I try to say positive things to myself, believe in myself, know I will feel better. But I feel so lost and don't want to go on. In the depressed state, it is so hard to do the things we know will make us feel better. Including eating for me. I don't eat barely, I can't seem to have the desire to do that. I would love any encouragement those of you who struggle too can give me. I know prayer works, but right now I have a hard time believing that.
Thanks to anyone who writes back.