The last year

[yellowhouse2]

For almost the last year I've become increasingly depressed. It comes and grows frequently though. Right now, it's not great since I'm at home because of my corona. Normally, I'd be at college and busier. I want to be able to try harder, to get going, to work on things, to be happier and more positive, but it seems impossible right now. I'm not even sure if "depression" is the right term for what I have been feeling and maybe it's only this bad because I'm stuck at home.

I often feel guilty for not being okay because I know that my mom only sees it as boredom and she doesn't understand what I have been going through this last year. I also feel guilty because I want to be happy when I call my boyfriend to say hi, I hate that so often when we talk I'm still not happy.

I'm not really sure how to progress to get better at this point honestly. I feel very stuck, almost as if I am in limbo.

Any suggestions?

[wayelayech]

Don't give up on yourself. xoxo 😘

[Dave_H]

Are you seeing or have you seen a psychiatrist about this? If you haven't, I would strongly recommend it. If you have to go to a family doctor to get a referral then that's the route. As for me, I don't trust my GP regarding my depression, I see a psychiatrist. It may sound impossible right now given the current circumstances, but I teleconference with my psychiatrist for now, and I video conference with my therapist, so it can be done. If you haven't seen anyone, I would suggest you get started sooner rather than later because it could take a while to get an appointment. You were very brave to post here, and try not to deny your feelings. They're there sometimes to help you know when something is wrong. Best Wishes.