Jobless

[mz_rachel]

Feeling overwhelmed. I feel like I need to work from home. And applying for these jobs are getting to me a bit. Aside from my bills, I honestly think I should work from home. I wanna work with dogs and I honestly wanna go full-time at it. What's stopping me? Some stuff. But any job work from home would probably be my best bet right now. I have tightness of chest just thinking about things, thinking I'm dying, worried, stressed, I feel it in my body, I can't relax, my mind is all over the place, my breathing is ok however I do take deep breaths when I feel like I'm not getting enough air. I'm scratching for self soothing (on my chest), it hurts but it's almost like having a cigarette... I just hate this shit and it's scary. Every moment feels like my last, or that I'm the only one going through this shit... sigh tired of it.

[sydxoxo]

so this may sound silly but make a list and a timeline, when you accomplish something write a new list and give a new timeline. it's hard feeling so overwhelmed but also if you work from home there's a chance you could talk yourself out of doing the work. also, write. write your thoughts, worries, stresses, all of it on a piece of paper and explain out each one when you're done burn the paper or rip it up. it helps with aggression.

[mz_rachel in reply to sydxoxo]

Thank you Syd for you kind words... I appreciate you taking the time to replying ❤️. I will try this again. I did do this but you know we try to explore what else is out there.

[anomonous]

youtu.be/mGcyjdFH-yE(Not working as expected?) lovely guy watch , tapping your chest....

[mz_rachel in reply to anomonous]

Thank you so much friend

[Want2bpositive]

One way to cope with anxiety is doing tasks that we love to do. Keeps us occupied, and distracts us away from negative thoughts. I work from home full time.It helps keep my mind away from anxious thoughts. Plus I blog, code etc, things that help keep me focused. You can try doing things you really love to do.

[mz_rachel in reply to Want2bpositive]

I was actually trying to find jobs working from home but no luck! I do doggy sit part time but if I could I'd do it full time.

[desiree294]

I'm also a member of the jobless club so I get it. Your mind is telling you to get back out there and make that money to pay the bills but your mental health is holding you back. I have terrible anxiety as well. I have an interview tomorrow for a part time job and I cried for hours today because I'm so overwhelmed just to interview! Like what if I get the job... and actually have to show up looking decent with a smile on my face?! It feels like too much to handle at the moment. Idk how to get through it.

[mz_rachel in reply to desiree294]

Oh god yes girl I'm totally the same! It sucks so freaking bad. Like a potential job is literally half a mile away from where we live and it feels like it's so far. When in fact the last job I had was about 10-15 mins away ONLY! And the interview I had down the street has another round of it and I'm like shit.. its full time but it's so close. And then yeah what if I do get the job, and I feel freaking weird.. I don't wanna panic! I'm on edge all the time. My bf gets it but you know... I feel so alone.

[desiree294 in reply to mz_rachel]

Yes I completely understand! My bf has also been amazing supportive throughout the time that I haven't been working. Thank god for him lol! I also just had an interview for a part time job that is just 5 min away but something inside me is telling me it just isn't right. I don't know if its my anxiety trying to keep me from working still or if the job isn't actually right for me. I just don't want to get another job and then start to have panic attacks and have to leave yet another job because of it... I just don't know what to do. I feel lost right now.

[mz_rachel in reply to desiree294]

Yessss... that's the main reason why I left my other job is bc I felt like I was leaving the team hanging. So I just thought it'd be fair to let her find a replacement for me. I know exactly how you feel, the job down the street for me is dog related and obviously it's so close that "if" anything was to trigger a panic attack, I wouldn't have to drive far. The problem is, how long can I look normal without anyone asking me if I'm ok... 😐. I guess to determine if it's the job for you or if it's your anxiety is if you're compromising with the job and you can't just look at it without thinking negatively. That's one way of trusting your gut that you wouldn't enjoy it. You'll know the difference. If I could be honest with my bf I would really just wanna work from home.

[Mexa88]

Hi mz_rachel!

I actually quit my job in March as I couldn't cope with it anymore. I was constantly anxious and dizzy for the whole time I was there. I moved closer to my family and have started my own physiotherapy business from home. It is much better than it was at my last job but now I have the added pressure of making ends meet with a new business. I also have to force myself to leave the house once a day or I get too comfortable and would never want to go out!

[mz_rachel in reply to Mexa88]

God I know... sigh. But I'm glad you've let yourself out that old place and doing what you love. I know the scary step we take just to be out with society. If I didn't have to as well, I wouldn't. At least with this anxiety crap.